Tainted

CHAPTER 16: WHY HIM NOT ME?

This ONE is dedicated to @LotusWalker!!!!

Fae P.O.V. 

I yanked on Vivian's arm as she was submerged in a kiss with Chad, with half her body inside the car and the rest on the side walk. She murmured another goodbye to Chad before we walked into her house. I immediately went upstairs with her following. "I'm going to go shower."

"Shower in here so I can talk to you." She said pulling off her top.

I nod then go into the bathroom, stripping I turned on the water and jump in before it could completely warm up. "Viv!" I call her name letting her know that she can come in.

"Ok sooooo...I can't believe you kissed Jay. And in front of Hayden?!" She squealed out.

I rolled my eyes squirting shampoo into my hand and then massaging my scalp. This was something that Vivian and I always did when she had juicy gossip and wanted to spill. We would talk to each other, while one of us was in the shower. It was harder at my house as I always worried that Mom would come back any minute and the bathroom was tiny. Vivian's bathroom was huge and spacious, enough so that she had a damn couch inside. The shower was a perfect waterfall shower that would steam up so nothing would be visible.

"I..." I didn't know how to answer.

"Why Jay and not Hayden? I mean I think Jay is hot but he's kind of a player, not that all the girls aren't falling for Hayden. But Jay gives them attention while Hayden doesn't." She said.

What she was saying as true but... "Hayden knows too much. Too many questions. I feel like he looks at me like I deserve pity and help, every time we have been together it was because something happened. I can't do that, it's not fair to him." I bit my lip silencing the tears that threaten to fall, thank god Vivian was on the other side of the glass.

"But we had the talk about 'no mans, I'm independent, and whatever'? Unless you changed your mind? And finally want a warm body?" She inquired.

I cringed with the use of Viv's words, or should I say my words. She was right. I had refused to lead Hayden on, so I ended things. Now I was leading Jay on. Why? Was it because I didn't feel anything for Jay? That he was literally 'a warm body'? "I guess I wanted something other than Hayden. Someone who doesn't care enough to get to know me...and my life."

"Makes sense. It's your choice. But, Fae when he finds out about everything you don't know how he'll react. Hayden wants to stand by you through everything, he wants to be there for you. I guess it's you decision, Jay is still cute so whatever. I'm going to go call Chad and see what he's doing." She said then left closing the door behind her.

I stayed in the shower a little longer and thought about the events of the night. Jay's kiss was not like Hayden's it was rough and sloppy. When I kissed Hayden, there was so much passion, his soft lips would mold against mine, perfectly fitting, caressing them as he would brush them lightly before devouring me. He... why was I comparing them? Hayden is my friend. I frowned, maybe not, he's been avoiding me. He couldn't possibly hate me?

"Five. Six. Seven." I alternated between my right and left hand, throwing jabs into the punching bag. I never understood why dad had an entire gym installed in the basement, when he had never stepped outside his office. I punched into the bag as hard as I could, with only one thing on my mind. Fae.

Anger filled me again thinking back to her words.

'I just don't feel the same way as you. I'm content with being friends, but that's it. Last night was a mistake.'