Amnesia // lashton

"'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all,"

- prologue -

Packing is something I hate doing, but I know that leaving here is only for the best, because let's be honest, my mother can't handle me anymore. It's not that I do things wrong, it's just that she's always gone and she has to take care of Lauren and Harry and I just stay alone in my room and don't care for them. At times. I stack the last luggage ontop of the other two. 

I look at the now empty room. I sigh, looking at all the picture I drew on the walls, when I was alone, depressed. Maybe I can start a new life at this new school. I want the past to be in the past, I know it will always follow me, but it'll always be kept away.

"Hey are you ready," my mum asks. I nod my head and grab a suitcase and begin to take it downstairs. I hear Lauren and Harry laughing downstairs. I reach the bottom step and head towards the front door.

"Mum, where is Ashton going," Harry asks as I step outside. I don't want to hear what my mother is going to say. I feel bad enough already to leave Harry and Lauren. I put the luggage in the back and go upstairs to grab the other two.

When I'm all finished, I go into the kitchen. "Ashton, you're coming back from your vacation, right?" I nod my head and ruffle Harry hair. 

"Course, bud. I always come back. Maybe you can visit me in London, if mum let's you. I'm sure she will, but no worries. I'll come for thanksgiving or maybe you can go over there and we can make a big feast," I say smiling.

Harry nods his head, showing his big smile. "Can we mum? That would be great!"

"Yeah, I think we can," mum says, smiling. I smile and then she sighs. "Alright. Time to go. We have to drop Ashton off at the airport."

"But it's only eight, doesn't his flight leave at six in the morning,"

"Yeah, but we're going to take your brother out, before he leaves, so c'mon and let's have a family night out for the whole night,"

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We spent the whole night, going to the movies and the beach. We ate ice cream at midnight. Lauren and Harry fell asleep. My mum and I talked about how life will be different over there. Four in the morning rolled around and my mum drove to the airport. I felt bad for waking my younger siblings up, but my mum, wanted them to see me for one last time. 

Four luggages later and I'm ready to go through security. I thank the lady and grab my ticket. I go back where my mum, Lauren, and Harry are at. I put my backpack on and look at my younger siblings. "Don't cry alright. Because then you're going to make me cry and no one wants to see that, alright,"

Lauren and Harry both nod. "Think of this as just, going to work and that I'll be back, okay," I look over at my mum. Lauren and Harry both hug me from the waist and my mum comes and hug me and it's one big group hug. I try not to cry, but my eyes water up. I hug them all and I can't stop myself from crying.

"I've gotta go mum, or else, I'm going to miss my flight," I tell her. She nods her head and they all back away. "I'm going to miss you guys alright. I'll be back soon."

I begin to walk to security and they begin to say bye really loud. I smile and wave at them. I wipe my tears away as I get to security. I grab a box and take my backpack off and take out my laptop. I put my wallet in there. They tell me to pass through and I walk through with no problem. I gather my things and walk to my gate. Getting a Starbucks on the way.

I go through my Twitter and Instagram. I end up buying another Starbucks. When I get back they're already boarding. I looking at my boarding number. Boarding group 1. Wow, I guess my mum got me first class. I smile and grab my things and ready to board the plane.

I find my seat number and I sit down next to the window. I get lucky, I guess. I take a picture of Sydney. This is my last time here. Eh, I'll be back. I put my seat belt on and put my bag under the seat in front of me. I put my phone on airplane mode, before sending my mum a quick text, saying I love her and that my plane is boarding. 

I close my eyes and I hear the flight attendence saying that the seat belt sign will appear shortly and that we're almost ready for take off. Goodbye Sydney, but not forever.

{a/n; does this suck? I'm sorry, I really have never writen a fan-fic, well I have, but not a lashton one and I'v been having lashton feels for a while and I wanted to make one and the first chatper will be better than this, the prologue. I hope you guys like it, because like I said, this is my first lashton fan-fic. thanks you. :)}

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