Sun-Kissed || Kang Daniel

Thirty Seven | Pout

20/30 

Four days went by.

Sometimes, I would grunt in annoyance because I felt like time was crawling. 

On other occasions, I wanted for time to freeze because the moment became too precious that I wanted to stay in it. 

Here I am now, at a cafe in Jeju with Daniel in front of me. 

Actually, we still haven't settled and talked to each other after the breakfast I had with the boys. Daniel was pretty preoccupied with the others since they went on a camping trip for three days. Of course, it would be too much if Sunny and I tagged along because we knew that the camp was for all of them. 

It was their well deserved adventure trip.

"So, let's talk about it." I stated while both of our coffees were placed down the table.

"Okay, so the world sees us as a couple now and it won't die down anytime soon." I nodded my head and sipped the coffee as if things were normal.

I am actually trying my best to act as if nothing happened at all but I know that it can never be changed anymore.

The past few days, I have been constantly contemplating on how I'll handle my situation because the internet has gotten much more crazed. My relationship with Jaehyun was also brought up and that was the moment when I received hate. 

'Her boyfriend even proposed to her and now she's off to a famous guy? What an attention seeker.'

'I heard they were together for three years and just recently broke up because Dani doesn't like him anymore.'

'How can she get over someone so quick? Such a bitch who can't live without a guy.'

'I'm pretty sure she just wants to be famous for being with Daniel, she must have blackmailed him to date him.'

'She is such a gold digger!' 

Those comments brought tears to my eyes, it went through my heart like a sword that brought so much distress and pain. I questioned my appearance, I began to doubt my capability because even if I say I'm okay, I will always be affected. Words can be very leasing but can also be very sharp to hurt someone.

I shut myself out and I could not get out of my room, scared that an anti-fan would cross paths with me and put salt to my wound even more. Sunny was going ballistic because I pleaded her to not tell anyone what I went through- especially Daniel. He would take all the blame to himself and I would add more problems. 

He already has so much on his plate. 

Plus, I had to visit Jaehyun soon. Sunny is totally against it but I feel like I should meet him, to know if he's okay. To sort things out, I feel numb nowadays. Too much hate was keeping me occupied, it was all contained in my head and it affected what I felt. The hates made me insecure sometimes, but I know I'm strong. 

But no matter how strong a person is, there will always be times when one needs to take a rest. No person can take up plenty of criticism without breaking down a few times. I am tough actually, but not all the time. 

I caressed my cat Penelope who was sleeping on my lap, it must be nice to be so peaceful.

"Sunny told me everything, she has been very worried about you." I bit my lip.

She was not supposed to say anything and now I've been discovered. I ran my hands through my hair and sighed, Daniel was looking much more puzzling than ever. He did not have that relaxed and cheery vibe like the usual, his brows furrowed from time to time and he would look at me with a look that I could not fathom. 

"I-" He clasped my hands with his and squeezed it gently.

"You don't have to keep it all to yourself, I'm here for you." A tear fell down my cheeks and I was surprised to cry in front of him.

He was even more baffled to see me with tears.

"I did this to you. If only I was more careful, if only I did not ask you to come with me to Busa-" This time, I placed my finger on his lips and made him shut up.

"Stop blaming yourself, we all made mistakes. It was a thing that we did not saw coming despite of the risk that we took so please stop." 

"Dani, I am such a stupid person for putting you to so much distress. I am a very horrible per-" I shook my head and squeezed his hands this time.

I knew that he was just as stressed as I was.

"How was your camping?" I tried to change the subject, to ease the atmosphere a bit.

Surprisingly, the weather was not on my side at all. It started pouring outside, it made my mood even more gloomy. 

"We had a blast, but I still worried about how you were. I just-" 

"Didn't I tell you to stop being so stressed out? Stop thinking that all of this is your fault. I am also a part to blame so let's drop this." I cut him off again, I was so not wanting him to be as down as I was. 

"Okay."

"What are the other guys up to now?" He shrugged his shoulders like little kid and pouted.

I couldn't help but laugh a bit, this Kang Daniel surely knows how to lighten up the mood.

However, a thought suddenly crossed to my mind when he pouted like that. 

I remembered the kiss, the drunk kiss. It made my cheeks go red all of a sudden. Why did I remember that? 

What the hell happened to me? I seriously need to sort my feelings out soon. 

"Anyway Dani, do you want to go hang out with the others?" 

"Okay." 

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Hey, where are the feed backs that I am looking for? Come on guys.