Empty...| Aphmau AU |

|1| Where it started...

Aphmau's p.o.v

I was in P.E class. Everything went normal, Katelyn playing Volleyball, Aaron talking to me, Ivy stalking Garroth , the gym teacher being late again. Just normal. Aaron was talking about his tests, and how he got B's and C's. Honestly, I thought he was smart..Guess not really. I heard my tummy growl. I immediately got embarrassed, and wrapped my arms around my stomach clutching it tightly. "Hungry?" Aaron smirked at me. "Yea-" I heard this voice come to my head..ugh..my head hurts..look at you..
Your fat...
Be skinny..
This voice kept saying it over and over again. Who is this voice? I'm fat? Be skinny? I just accepted my body a few years ago... I don't wanna take laxatives, do 100 sit ups, and 200 crunches again. Please, go away...
"Aphmau?" I then snapped out, and looked at Aaron. "P.E just ended. Wanna grab something to eat, and hang out with the gang?" He continued. P.E just ended? The teacher wasn't even here. So basically we changed for nothing. I felt The voice come back again. I felt sick, dizzy, my stomach hurting from clutching it so hard.

Don't you dare say yes...
Have you looked at yourself?
You don't deserve food...
Or friends...
Go punish yourself...
Your 4'11 and your 110 lbs..
What a fatty you are...
Lose weight...
Nothing tastes better than skinny does...

That last one got me hard. How could i not see how overweight I am. I then just went mad at myself. I'm gonna punish myself. "No, I'm not hungry." I started to walk towards the girls locker room. Surprisingly, he didn't follow me or ask me why. He just left me alone, that made me think that he didn't care about me or enough to ask me what's wrong. I just ignored the thought, and changed to my school uniform. I came out, and school ended. Walking outside, i saw the gang laughing, having fun and yelling at each other.

That looks fun..
But you gotta go home and punish yourself...
I can do that later
No you can't...
Yes I can.
No. You. Can't...
Yes I-
That's 200 more crunches if you say it...
Alright..but who are you?
I'm you, silly.
Sorry..but My mind isn't crazy.
Well, let's just say that you are...
Can you stop?
Alright, Alright. Just go home...
Fine...

I didn't wanna go home. My body just took control. My mind took control. Voice took control...

But I wanna be in control..