The Difference

The Moment I Knew

Once we closed the door behind us we didn't know what else to do. I looked at the redheaded girl, and I didn't know what to do.
"Um by the way I'm Toni. Toni Topaz." She gave me a halfhearted smile,
"Oh so you're the one Veronica keeps talking about." She looked away from me, as if reminding herself of my girlfriend meant she wasn't allowed to look at me. My attention was drawn to her lips, she had started to bite her lip. I walked to the bed and sat down next to her.
"We don't have to do anything if you don't want to." She took a deep breath and exhaled, she looked relieved. She opened her mouth to say something, but it died before it touched her lips. She seemed to be the person who never is awkward, but at the moment, she could have won an award for it. She looked at me from the corner of her eye.
"Do you want to?" I don't know if she meant to, but she glanced down at my lips, and glanced away.
"Not if you don't want to." It felt somewhat like I was talking to a deer in headlights. I wanted her to know that I just wanted her to be comfortable for this moment. I did not want her to know that... I wanted her to be happy, I wanted her to be truly laughing, not always left out. I want her to be loved. I want to love her, and I barely know this girl sitting in front of me.
"Do you trust me?" I asked her, I didn't know how I expected her to answer, all I knew was that I wanted to kiss her.
"I barely know you, screw that I just met you. I don't trust people lightly. And yet... yes. I do trust you." She stared down at her hands, entertwining them and untangling them, over and over again. I put my hands over hers, seperated them and held her hands.
"Close your eyes." She closed her eyes, she seemed scared. I took a deep breath and exhaled. I don't know this girl at all, and yet my cheeks feel like they're burning, I fee like I'm on a rollercoaster waiting for the steep drop downwards. I cupped her face in my hands, and I kissed her softly on the mouth, once. It didn't feel like kissing Veronica. Or any of my exes. Even Jughead. Kissing her felt like... it felt like coming in to a warm house, sipping hot chocolate after being in the snow for years. It felt like... coming close to happiness, pure, beautiful happiness. Then I pulled away. Her lips parted, and her eyes opened.
"That wasn't so bad was it?" I hoped it wasn't, I felt as if that was the worst kiss I've ever given. She shook her head, and smiled. It was a real smile, I don't know how I ever doubted it before, the past smiles I'd seen her give were nothing compared to this one.
"What's wrong?" She seemed concerned, as if me staring at her beauty was... not normal.
"You're just... incredibly beautiful." She blushed scarlet and frowned, I saw the thoughts running through her head. This girl has a girlfriend, I can't like this girl, this girl is cheating on her girlfriend. Veronica is her girlfriend, Veronica already hates me enough, I shouldn't be doing this. I shouldn't trust this girl. Why do I trust this girl? Who is this girl?
Then someone knocked on the door.
"Times up! Come on out!" We opened the door and walked out of the room. Veronica was still staring at Archie, I doubt she realized I left. I sighed, I don't think our relationship is going to end well, like Jughead said. I sat back down into my seat next to Eva, rested my head on her shoulder, and closed my eyes. Reliving in the moment of that kiss, that one kiss that felt like how people describe it in romance novels, or romantic movies. That was the moment I knew. I'm in love with a girl. A girl I barely know, who isn't my girlfriend, and thinks I'm a person who cheats on her girlfriend. I'm in love with a red headed girl, who is a mystery to me. Someone tapped me on the shoulder. When I opened my eyes, my girlfriend was sitting in front of me.
"We have to talk."