The Difference

No One Will Ever Love Me The Way You Do

The memory engulfed me, almost as if it were trying to warn me.
"Toni... We have to talk." It was Delilah, I was sitting on her lap, we were watching a movie.
I trusted her. I trusted her completely. My older sister was alive in the other room. My twin siblings hadn't been born yet. My cousin was alive next door. My home wasn't broken, my house wasn't a trailer. My parents... hadn't left yet.
"You're not good enough for me. I know I deserve better, but I don't think anyone else will ever love me the way you do."
"Then just stay with me, please."
"No. I'm sorry Toni. I can't I'm leaving you."
That wasn't the first time I heard that from her, but everynight without fail she would climb through my window and cuddle with me. Even if we repeated the conversation of her dumping me, she would always come back. She always thought she deserved better than me. Her saying that so much didn't exactly made my self esteem sky rocket, I became moe quiet, not wanting others to know I was hurting inside. Not wanting others to know... My heart was slowly giving up in my chest, knowing that I would have a life of Delilah leaving then coming back, I would never have anyone else. I could never have anyone else.
I shook the memory off of me. Eva looked worried.
"In private?" I looked at Veronica, she was hiding from me behind her hair. She nodded her head without looking at me.
As we walked into the kitchen, i looked around to make sure no one else would overhear our conversation.
"Okay... what's up?" My stomach was doing flips inside me, squirming and not wanting to be still.
"We have to talk." She just repeated herself one more time, almost as if she didn't want to admit something to me.
"Do you have anything in particular you want to talk to me about?" I was slightly annoyed now, I didn't want her to know that though.
"I don't think that you should be kissing other girls if you're dating me. And I see the way you look at Eva, and at all those other girls."
Now I was just confused and somewhat bewildered, what other girls?
"What the hell are you talking about?" I didn't even try to hide that I was annoyed. The jealousy from girlfriends wasn't even slightly cute to me, especially since whenever it was from my girlfriends, it normally wasn't on the small scale.
"You're a player Toni. You like to play with people. And you like to play with girls, make them think that you're in love with them and then suddenly WHAM! You leave them just like that."
I just wanted her to get to the point, I couldn't tell where she was going with this. I don't think even she knew, in her drunken haze.
"Are you leaving me?"
"No... I don't think anyone else will ever love me the way you do." The words sent a shiver down my spine. Delilah...
Without any warning, she slapped me across the face.
"Don't like anyone else. Don't love anyone else. If you do, I'll fucking dump your ass quicker than you can say 'oops'. Capiche?" She was being so clearly condescending but I pretended. I made excuses for her, she just doesn't want to loose me. She wants me. She just has a funny way of showing it.
Once we walked back into the room, I told Eva I was leaving, Jughead was probably somewhere eating happily without a care in the world.
I got on my bike and was about to leave when I saw the corner of a white dress flash across the bushes, heard the sound of ripping fabric, I heard a whimper. Then I heard a scream.