Im at war
Fighting for the one that I love
And the one that I truly need
I'm at war
-Sean Kingston
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Jacob Pov
We walked inside Craig's house and the first thing I heard was crying.
"He hates me Craig! I'm such a horrible friend!" I heard Ray sob.
"It's okay baby. He is just upset; give him time to calm down." Craig comforted him.
My heart broke. I didn't want to see my best friend crying. But he hurt me. He knew Craig and Chresanto bullied me and he dated one of my bullies. Didn't even tell me.
I walked into the living and watch my best friend cry into his boyfriend chest.
"Ray.. please don't cry." I spoke softly.
His head shot up so quickly I thought he might had gotten whip lash.
"Jacob...."
I open my arms to him and he ran into them sobbing, telling me how sorry he was. I can hear foot steps leaving the room, so I'm guessing Chresanto and Craig left too give us privacy. They actually do have a heart.
"Jacob... I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kept me and Craig a secret. I didn't want to hurt you and that's exactly what I ended up doing. Hurting you. Please for give me." He hugged me tighter to him.
"Yes Ray, you did hurt me. You lied and that's what hurt the most. Not that your dating Craig, but lied to my face. I'm you best friend Ray. Why not straight out tell me?"
"I'm sorry Jacob. I thought you would get mad at me. Please forgive me?"
"I forgive you." I smiled at him.
He did a girly squeal and hugged me tighter. I chuckled and patted his back. I love my best friend.
"So...? What happen between you and Chresanto?" I blushed at the thought of Chres.
"Nothing..... He just convinced me to talk to you."
Ray gave me that 'You a damn lie' look, but shrugged it off. We talked about other stuff like how him and Craig starred dating, their sex life. Which I did not want to know, and how in love he is with him. Aww. Craig got my friend all love struck.
Chresanto Pov
"So.... you told him you love him and he told you he was scared?" I nodded my head to Craig question.
I told him what went down when I found Jacob after I ran after him. I really love that boy. He just doesn't understand. He makes my day just by being in my presence. Him alone can only do that to me. I'll do anything for that boy.
"Yeah man. Why can't he just let me love him? There ain't no need for him to be scared. I'll love him with everything in me." I sighed.
"Maybe it's not you he is scared of. Maybe it's someone else."
"Who could possible make him scared to love me?" Craig looked at me guilty.
"Do you know who Craig..?"
"Yeah.. but it's not my place too tell."
I sighed and nodded my head. I understand, and respect that. I'll just ask Jacob later.
Anthony Pov
I feel sorry for all the shit I do to Jacob. I love my little brother. I don't know why I ever hurt him. I just don't like people touching him. I've talked to our ma about getting help. She asked me why and I told her about all the things I did to Jacob. She cried and told me she would help me. I'm going to get better for my little brother. Then I'm going to apologize to him for all those years that I hurt him.
Jacob Pov
I stay the night at Ray house last night and rode with him to school this morning. We talked about never lying to each other and I told him Chresanto told me he loved me. He squealed and told me he was happy for me. But got angry when I told him that I was scared.
We walked into school and walked to our lockers. After getting our stuff we chatted for a bit before Craig and Chres showed up. Ray ran to Craig and jump on him, kissing him on the lips. I smiled at them. They are so cute together. I looked over at Chresanto and he was eye raping me. I cleared my throat and blushed when he grinned at me.
"Hey beautiful..." His voice was husky.
"Hi.." I said shyly.
He smirked at me and leaned against the locker looking down at me. He is so freaking tall!
"Jacob please let me prove to you that I love you."
"I'm scared Chresanto. Plus you hurt me. I don't know." I mumbled and looked down at my shoe.
He sighed and lifted my chin up to look at him.
"Please..."
"I'm sorry... I just... I just can't." I shook my head and walked away from him.
From the corner of my eye I could see hurt flash across his face and Craig patting his back. He just doesn't know what Anthony will do if he ever found out. That's what im scared of.
As the day pass it finally was lunch time. As I walked down the empty hall I couldn't help but notice all the prom posters around. That's right! Prom is in two week. I never go. Ray tried inviting me last year but I declined. I want to be asked by someone, not a friend.
I was close to the lunch room when I'm pulled to the side and pushed into a class room. It was dark and as soon as I was going to scream a hand went over my mouth. I started to struggle and push at their chest. Okay so the person is obviously a boy.
I push some more, with tears going down my face. The boy came closer and whispered in my ear to calm down that he wasn't going to hurt me.
After several minutes of me taking deep breaths and calming down; mystery boy step away.
"Who are you....?"
"It's Craig. Are you all right?"
"Craig! What the actual fuck! Do you go around kidnapping people on a daily?!" I shrieked.
"No... I just really need to talk to you. Can I have a minute." I nodded and wave for him to continue.
"Okay so Ray told me about Anthony." I gasped and put a scowl on my face.
"So what! You want to come and make fun of me now! Go head. I don't care." I started heading for the door.
"No wait Jacob that's not what I meant." He grabbed my arm. "I ment I know why your scared to get with Chresanto. Trust me.. I know how you feel but you can't let that get in the way of love..I know you love Chres just as much as he loves you. Give him a chance. He is a good guy and has good intentions. I've never seen him more hurt than when you denied him in the hallway this morning." He spoke softly at the end.
"You just don't know Anthony like I do Craig. He is fear. Everyday I wake up happy I'm alive. I don't want to upset him." I sighed.
"Just let it go. Stop worrying."
"I can't! I can't stop worrying. He is my fucking brother! I live with him. See him everyday. Don't give me that don't worry bull shit Craig. You just don't know Anthony like I do.." I said angrily with silent tears.
"Jacob-" I cut him off.
"I'm scared! Look at what he does every time he gets angry with me." I cried and lift up my shirt and turned to show him my back.
He gasped and slowly ranned his fingers over the marks. I winced lightly because some are a couple days old.
"That's not even half of it." I said so softly I doubt he heard me.
"Jacob.. I'm so sorry this is happening to you. But just please give Chres a chance. That all I'm asking."
I sighed and nodded my head. I turned to him and looked at him for a minute. He is good for Ray. I have a feeling he is. He hugged me and left. I walked out and continued walking into the lunch room.
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