Valentine?

Chapter 8

Sadhbh's p.o.v
Not long after the phone call ended she finished unpacking so she decided to sit down and relax for a bit it was then she noticed the envelope on Mikey's bedside locker she was going to leave it till she noticed her name on the front of it she got off the bed and walked over to it and opened the letter she slumps down onto the floor and reads it

Dear Sadhbh,
I know we haven't talked since highschool started heck we haven't even seen each other. If I did something wrong that made you avoid me like I was the plague I am so sorry I never ever meant to do that. I know this isn't the most ideal way of talking to you again but I don't know if I'll have enough time to say it all to you heck even if I did I'd probably stumble and forget what I wanted to say so I decided that if I wrote it all in a letter that I'd have a chance to say everything I didn't say. Sadhbh we have been best friends since kindergarten I still remember how shy you were when we first met you barely talked to me but as time passed you soon didn't stop talking you would blabber on about so many different things that you loved and every single time I sat there intently and listened to everything you said while we played. As time went on we got closer and closer till we were inseparable and in all honesty I loved being around you because you never failed to make someone smile even when they were down. You are one in a million Sadhbh nobody will ever come close to being as special as you not even if they tried to. This next part I'm worried to write because I don't know what you are going to think when I say this so here I go anyway. Sadhbh I fell in love with you but I never got the chance to say it to you because I could never find you I even tried going to your house but you were never there, I felt like I had hurt you in some way that I couldn't remember and I remember that the last day I went to your house to tell you and you weren't there either I remember thinking on the way home now I'm after breaking up the best friendship I ever had and I couldn't even remember how I did it. Not long after that I started the band and well that soon became my distraction and escape from tormenting myself of how I hurt you so much that it caused you to isolate yourself. Not long after that I put my all into the band because I remembered that you said that no matter what you can reach your dreams if you truly want them to become your reality. It was those words that pushed me to do my best in the band and to hopefully get somewhere with it and it's all thanks to you that my dream became my reality. Now back to the main reason I wrote this letter and yes I did add on stuff since I first wrote it, Sadhbh I fell in love with you years ago and I wish I told you to your face. Heck I don't even know if you are going to feel the same as I do and if you don't that's okay but can we please go back to being best friends then because I don't want to lose you all over again I care to much to let you go again.
Love Michael

Sadhbh is in tears by the time she finishes the letter she can't believe he thought it was his fault that she isolated herself. The part that shocked her most was that he fell in love with her back all those years ago in highschool and she was to scared to even see him so she kept far away from him. Sadhbh hears the door close and looks up to see that Michael is back

"Michael"

"Sadhbh I"

"How old is this letter"

"Senior year I wrote it I tried to find you to give it to you but I never could so I kept it and brought it with me everywhere I went in case I saw you now it's just become a habit because its the last thing I had that had something to do with you"

"Mike did you actually mean what you said in this letter"

"Yes I did I meant every word of it"

Sadhbh gets up off the floor and puts the letter on the bed and looks Michael in the eyes as the tears flow down her cheeks Michael walks up to her then cups her face in his hands and wipes the tears away with his thumbs Sadhbh closes her eyes in hopes to stop the tears but her attempt is useless as the tears still flow Michael pulls her into a hug and holds her tight 

"Sadhbh don't cry it's all okay"

"But Mike you have wanted to give me this letter for four years and.."

"It doesn't matter you got it now and that's all that matters"

"I'm sorry Mike I shouldn't have just taken it and read it I just couldn't help it cause my name was on it and I was curious" 

He pulls away from the hug and looks Sadhbh in the eyes

"Sadhbh it was for you, you don't need to be sorry for reading it I'm the one that needs to be sorry for not giving it to you sooner"

Sadhbh looks down at the ground 

"You meant it four years ago but do you still mean it now"

Michael puts a finger under her chin and tilts her head up so he can look into her eyes

"Of course I still mean it Sadhbh even ask the lads they will even tell you that I never stopped loving you"

"You l-love me"

"I have loved you for years"

Sadhbh smiles unsure of what to say so she just looks at him

"I don't expect you to feel the same, and if you don't please don't let this ruin our friendship"

"Michael shut up and kiss me already"