The Cost of Freedom Is High

Bath Bombs & Bonding

"Ow." I groaned waking up to feel a new sense of pain and discomfort that I had not yet been introduced to.

I remembered every single detail from last night, even up to the mini break down I'd had in bed with Cam.

I couldn't be the girl I'd been before anymore. It was far too strenuous both on my mind and in the long run my body.

I had to push my past out of my mind and live in the now, I had to be that sub I agreed to be in our contract.

Would I be perfect right away?

Absolutely not, but I'd work myself as hard as possible and prove these thing to not only them, but prove to myself how strong I'd become.

I'd finally gotten the message that for so long has been attempted to be drilled into my head, "This is my life now, and I have to live it."

Figuring that Cam and TJ would probably just want to stay sleeping, I quietly slipped out of bed with as few groans of discomfort as possible and made my way upstairs. That is of course after putting on a brand new set of underwear and someone's Black Craft Cult tank top.

Once out of bed, I threw the blanket back over them and made my way up to the kitchen where I could here a few voices.

(MIW, AA, ETF, and FIR and Kuza, Max, Angelo, and Tyler)

"Well look who's up." Ricky chuckled from near the coffee pot.

"Good Morning, sirs." I replied.

"You seem to be in a chipper mood." Robert observed.

"Mostly." I said.

"I'm taking it you're in a bit of pain." Robert suggested.

"Yeah." I stated.

"Take this, it'll make you feel a bit better." Robert instructed me, handing over a mug of tea and three pills.

"Thanks." I thanked him and willingly downed the medicine.

I noted that Jacky and Sam Bettley were also in the kitchen, but they seemed content with making the meal.

"Some people are still waking up, but others are sprawled out so feel free to go anywhere, just make sure you come down in about half an hour." Robert told me.

"Has anyone left or arrived since last night?" I wondered.

"No, and no one's planned to for a few days." Robert answered.

"Okay, sounds good." I said, hopping down from the counter.

Once out of the kitchen I made my way to the second floor's smaller and cozy family room.

The door was open letting me know someone was inside, so I slowly maneuvered my way into the room.

Inside I found a sleeping Michael on the rocking chair and Tyler and Derek were sleeping on the couch head to head.

It was a little cute.

The soft carpet padded my footsteps so by the time I was curling up along side Michael's side he hadn't even heard me.

"Hey there, little one." Michael whispered.

"Hi." I smiled back.

"Is breakfast done?" He wondered.

"No, Jacky and Sam are working on it though." I replied.

"Are you on the menu." He chuckled, pulling me even closer into his body and slightly running his teeth on my neck.

"I don't know how much more my body can take, at least for a while." I explained.

"Yes, I heard about your little adventure with TJ and Cameron. You want to know how I know it was good?" He asked.

"How?" I tested him.

"You still smell of sex." Michael lightly giggled.

"Is it bad?" I worriedly asked.

"No, it's sexy." He responded.

"Can I just quickly take a shower?" I questioned him.

"Would it make you feel better?" He asked.

"Yes, sir." I replied.

"Okay, then go ahead but make sure that you get down in time." He warned me.

"Will do." I told him, and quickly got out of that room and made my way down to the end of the hall and entered the smaller bathroom.

There were already towels hanging up for me to use, so I quickly stripped myself naked and tried to find some body wash of any type.

Not finding any in the actual shower itself I turned to the cupboard and was actually surprised by the first thing my eye caught. On the bottom two shelves there were these big and small balls that appeared to be made out of some type of soap.

I wanted to further investigate, but I realized I was still running low on time and I had just found a bottle of bodywash and shampoo on the very top shelf.

Grabbing it, I made my way into the shower and effectively washed the scent of lust from my body, and replaced it with something much sweeter.

Going as fast as I could without hurting myself, I got out, dried off, slipped on the new clothes again and made my way down to the dining room.

"Nice timing." Vinny complimented me.

"Thanks." I smiled back, and took a seat between Ryan Sitkowski and Ryan Seaman.

The only thing I noticed that was missing was TJ and Cameron, that actually surprised me.

"Looks like you weren't the only one tired from last night." Danny laughed.

"Guess not." I awkwardly replied, feeling a blush rise to my face.

I sat back in my chair and silently sat there as the food and drink was passed around the table.

To be honest, at the moment I wasn't hungry at all but I'd learned that was something I just had to suck up and deal with. Overall it was pretty lively as people broke off into their own little conversations. While I just sat there slowly sipping my second mug full of tea.

"What?" Ryan Sitkowski asked me.

"I didn't say anything." I politely replied.

"I know, but you just look deep in thought." He commented.

"Not really, I was kind of wondering though in the upstairs bathroom what those little balls are." I said.

Before Ryan had the chance to reply, Chris beat him with a gasp.

Oh god, was it something I'd said?

"You've never had one of those?" Chris questioned me.

"No, should I have?" I asked.

"Yes, they're only the best thing fucking ever." Chris told me.

"Ryan will show you." Ricky laughed.

"Nope." Ryan said, accentuating the p.

"Ghost and or I will show you later." Balz said.

"Okay." I said, and once again sat back.

I silently ate my food, and once I was done I just rested my head against Ryan's (Sitkowski) shoulder.

I was still exhausted, I honestly had no idea how I'd stayed up this late.

I felt Ryan's strong and tattooed fingers gently stroke through my hair, and once again before I knew it I was fast asleep.

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"Bella, time to wake up." Someone cooed, giving my arms a little tap.

"Mmmhm." I grumbled, pulling whatever blanket I had on me over my head.

"Come on princess." Balz groaned.

Finally recognizing his voice, my eyes fluttered open.

"What?" I moaned.

"Never mind." He grumbled, but quickly got his hands underneath my hips and waist and proceeded to toss me up and over his shoulder.

I didn't move and just stayed still on his shoulder until a few more minutes passed and I was set down on my feet.

I was finally a bit more awake, and I could take in what was going on around me.

"You know that bathroom that you were in this morning?" He asked me.

"Yes." I replied.

"I want you to get two of the same type of those balls. It doesn't matter if it's based on smell or color, just go and get them and meet me up in the master bath." Balz instructed.

"Okay.?" I said.

"Good girl." He smiled and placed a light kiss on my forehead.

He walked away, and with that I quickly ran back to the room where I'd showered this morning.

Opening up the cabinet I took a little bit of time going through the fun and different colors and shapes of whatever these things are.

Finally coming across a purple and pink one with a rose, I slightly sniffed it and it was an amazing scent that managed to relax me almost instantly all the way.

Deciding on this one I grabbed two as per instruction and made my way up to Balz in the master bath.

Opening up the door I saw the huge pristine white tub filled with water that had steam running over the top of it all, and Balz was not in sight, but I could hear him behind the door talking with someone else. I couldn't make out their voice though.

"Sir?" I called.

"I'll be right there, just go ahead and take your clothes off." Balz instructed.

This time without hesitation I stripped myself of my underwear and tank top, then preceded to nervously hold up my arms to cover my most private places.

A couple of minutes passed and I heard a door close on the other side of the room near where Balz was.

Right after that Balz walked through the door and his eyes met mine.

He let out a soft chuckle, and made his way over to the water.

"What?" I asked.

"You're still so shy." He stated, pointing to my hands.

"I'm working on it." I informed him.

"Good." He replied, taking the two balls from my hands.

He gently put the two spheres in the bath and I watched with fascination as they began to bubble, fizz, and dye the water a subtle yet fun pink and purple.

"Any specific reason for this?" I wondered.

"Just to relax I guess, is there any need to have a specific reason?" Balz questioned me back.

"No, I guess not." I said.

"Good, now get in." He gently urged me.

Taking his extended hand I walked up the couple of stairs, and gently dipped my foot in the water.

"Ah!" I quickly exclaimed, surprised by the seemingly searing heat from the water.

"I know it seems really hot, but just get in and I promise it'll feel good." Balz whispered, placing his other hand on my back.

The look in his eyes told me to trust him, and so I slowly walked into the tub originally wincing at the heat, but soon reveling in its calming effect on my body.

Once I made my way all the way into the tub I sat down against the tub, closed my eyes and listened as Balz got in.

Based on the noises from the water I could tell he was sitting across from me.

Letting the water soak my body, and the scent relax me I closed my eyes sunk even deeper into the tub.

"I needed this forever ago." I groaned.

"I'm glad you like it." He whispered, then went quiet.

I sunk even deeper into my own blissful world and all of the stress, tension, and even hesitation washed away.

With my eyes closed, I don't even know how much time passed. That didn't matter though, I was on cloud nine.

As I was in a somewhat euphoric state, I was suddenly surprised when two strong hands wrapped around me and gently grabbed both of my breasts.

Normally I would've pulled away and freaked out, but I couldn't lie anymore. This felt really fucking good.

Not even bothering to look at who was the culprit, I kept my eyes closed and found soft whines coming out of my mouth as the mystery person behind me captured my nipples in between their thumb and pointer finger.

"Shit." I hissed, putting my head back to rest it on whomever's shoulder.

"You like that little slut?" Someone growled behind me.

I could recognize most of their voices now on demand, but this one was the most unique.

Ghost.

"Maybe." I stated, now smiling back up at him.

Opening my eyes I was met with his piercing back into mine.

"What do you say Balz, is she up for some fun or did TJ and Cameron take it all out of her?" Ghost wondered, his hands now wandering painfully slow down my body.

The familiar feeling of my stomach starting to twist started to rise up in me, and the calmness I'd been feeling was replaced with a form of lustful anxiety.

"I don't know, why don't we find out?" Balz suggested with a mischievous grin.

I didn't know what to expect next, even as Balz sat up in front of me on his knees and pulled my body closer to his.

Before I knew it Balz was gently sliding his index finger up and down my slit.

"I can't do it." I mumbled, knowing my body didn't have the stamina or energy for it.

"Hmm. She's not even wet.... at least how we want her." Balz stated, seemingly disappointed.

"What a shame." Ghost sighed, still right up against my ear.

"Despite that, will you be joining us?" Balz asked him.

"No, unfortunately not. Angelo and I are heading out to get Brandon, and the sooner we can get him here the better." Ghost replied.

"Okay, we'll see you in a couple days then." Balz said.

"Will do. And as for you my love, I'll see you right away when I get back." He whispered in my ear.

And with that, Ghost got up and left the bathroom leaving Balz and I in the tub alone.

"What?" Balz asked with a slight giggle in his tone.

"That seemed stranger than what I'm used to." I replied honestly.

"It's Ghost my dear, do you expect normal?" Balz wondered.

"No offense, but normal isn't something I associate with anyone in your band." I admitted.

"Okay, now you're just being mean." He groaned, pulling me up onto his lap and moving back so he was resting against the edge of the tub.

"Aw, did I hurt your feelings?" I cooed, looking back up at him.

"Stop while you're ahead Bells, you're getting on my nerves." He warned me.

"Sorry." I quickly apologized, resting my head against his shoulder.

"It's fine, like you said you're still learning." He replied.

"Thanks for being a bit more understanding." I whispered, being sincere.

"No problem. Now let's just make the best out of this bath until someone else comes barging in." He suggested.

"Sounds perfect." I said.

With one last grip, Balz pulled me even closer into him, and as a combination of his warmth, the heat of the water, and the calming scent of the bath I found myself drifting into a peaceful state.

"'Good girl." I hear whispered out, leading up to my sleep.