Hard To Face Reality | Complete | J.B. | BXB

Chapter 9 - Unbroken

Niall's P.O.V

I sat staring at the wall across from me in the dim waiting room, clenching Lexi's hand. I felt like I was going to lose her. I gnawed on my bottom lip and glanced at the clock 10.30 was getting closer and closer. I looked at Lexis stomach. She was 9 weeks, but already growing, is that normal? The boys wanted to come to the sonogram with me but I said I'd be fine. Lexi and I can handle this by ourselves. We need to.

A tall lady with a cheesy smile walked into the waiting room calling a name of the clip board.

"Horan?" she called. I took a deep breath and stood up keeping Lexi's hand still locked in mine. Lexi lay down on the bed and the lady prepared everything. She looked over at us.

"There is no reason to be scared everything will be just find." She said smiling at us. She lifted up Lexi's shirt, showing her little bump that was barely noticeable, it was kind of cute. I tried smiling. The lady spread the goo around Lexi's belly and began looking at the monitor. She turned the monitor towards us. "This is baby A" She pointed at the small peanut shape on the screen. "And this is baby B." She said smiling.

"Wait, what? There's two?! As in we're having twins?" I was in complete shock. I felt like fainting.

Two. There were two. We are having twins. I didn't think I could handle one. But now there's two?

"Calm down babe we can do this. It's okay just breath." Lexi said I shook my head this was all so wrong.

"Sorry it's just a surprise. Sorry I should be the one comforting you." I said feeling guilty. I rubbed her hand and she smiled. She lifted my hand and kissed it. The nurse cleared her throat I looked up at her and coughed. She continued her examination by measuring their heads and body parts and taking photos of the sonograms and other complicated things.

I tried focusing on the screen but my eyes kept returning to Alexis she seemed so happy. I couldn't believe we were going to have our own little family. I began to imagine us having our perfect house with little nursery's for each of the babies and paint the rooms blue or pink. I couldn't help but want what I had feared.

I love her so much right now. This is us. This is our love. And now we are going to be a family.

"Well Your all clear they seem to be growing well. Do try to avoid all of these." She said handing Lexi a list. It was long. She sighed.

"I'm going to starve." She said smiling up at me, warming my insides. I bit my lip. This was it, and it was perfect. I laughed softly and kissed her head.

Justin's P.O.V

I ran down the street away from Zayn, away from my feelings. I was scared that if I stayed there I would of done something stupid like kiss him. I'm such an idiot. I mean I love Liam, I really do, he makes me happy. He makes my heart melt at his every word. When I tell him I love him I mean it.

But for some reason Zayn has an effect on me stronger than love. And I have no idea why. I am with Liam I need to forget about the boy with the hoodie. I need to keep my distance if I want Liam and I to last. Because I do I love Liam.

I walked around the corner of the dark street and walked in the direction of the hotel. I can't ruin this. I love Liam. I'm so fucking messed up. I'm getting feelings for another guy, when I am supposed to be in love with that guys best friend. I need to clear my head get away from everything. I need to talk to Ryan and Chaz. I seriously need to talk to my mom. I need to get away from him from everything. I need to go home.

I walked into the lobby and instead of walking up to the elevator, I opened the heavy door leading to the stares and ran up them sliding around the corners . Accelerated with energy I almost missed my floor. I pulled open the door and ran to my room. Smashing through the front door I made my way to the bedroom. I checked my phone it was 11:46. Almost midnight. Oh well. I grabbed some clothes out of my suit case suitable for exercise and made my way into the bathroom. I got changed and pulled my hood up over my face and plugged in my head phones. I put my phone on shuffle and slid it in my pocket.

As I ran along the hard foot path I listened to my heartbeat in my ears, just loud enough to hear over my blasting music. I began to slow down in exhaustion. I had been running for over two hours. I forced myself forward continuing around the corner marking the end of the block I had run around, what had felt like a hundred times.

As I stopped to pull my phone out and check the time I noticed something, it was a dark figure curled up into a ball on the ground. I pulled my head phones out and listened, a quite sobbing came from the figure. I wasn't sure if I should check if they were okay, then I realized who it was. I walked up to him and bent down looking into his deep brown eyes he had tears rushing down his face and his face was flushed.

"Zayn? Are you okay? Why are you out here so late?" I questioned staring in to his dark eyes and taking his ice cold hands in mine. He sniffled and blinked a few times before he spoke.

"Justin I'm Sorry. I'm so sorry I didn't mean to." He croaked sobbing once more into his knees. I didn't realize he really did have feelings for me. I never thought about how he was feeling. I never even guessed at how my actions could have reflected on him, not just myself. I was so selfish I didn't even realize how much Zayn really liked me and I hated myself for that.

I took a deep breath as I sat down next to him on the cold concrete. It was so dark I could barely notice the dark circles that lined Zayn's eyes.

"I'm sorry too. For leading you on making you think I was interested. And even if I was Zayn, you know I can't, I'm with Liam and I just couldn't do that to him. I shouldn't do that to him. And every time I tell him I love him I'm making a promise that I do." I breathed and stared into his eyes and caressed his soft check. 'I'm sorry Liam' I thought to myself as I licked my lips.

"But some promises are meant to be broken." I said quietly as I leaned closer and closer to his face. I slowly placed a soft kiss upon his lips. I pulled away searched his eyes for a moment before he looked at me again and smashed his lips onto mine.

Our lips slowly began moving in sync. Zayn's arms wrapped around my neck. He began play with the hair on the back of my neck. He let out a low moan as I licked his lips, asking for entrance, to which he immediately granted me. As our tongues began to roam each other's mouths, Zayn smiled into the kiss, proving he was truly enjoying this. I pulled away thinking something was wrong.

He looked up at me.

"I like this idea." He said smiling like a dork. I pushed my body up, right next to him and laid my head on his shoulder. My eyes began to close as I got more and more tired. I felt Zayn get up, picking me up in his arms bridle style as I fell asleep.