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Chapter 13 - Questions But No Answers

Zayn's P.O.V

I woke up with a heavy feeling in my stomach I couldn't believe the grief that has gone through our group in such little time. I looked to my side and sighed at the sight of an empty bed. I missed Justin, a lot but I know that I have to keep my distance until everything's dealt with. I rolled over and frowned grabbing my phone.

"New Message from Justin" it read. I smiled and read the message. "Hey Babe, um I'm going to have lunch with Liam today to ya know. I was wondering if you were busy this afternoon and we could chill tonight, since we can't really go out anywhere yet. J" it read, I bit my lip and stared at the screen. I was about to reply when my phone alerted again with a message from Niall. I sighed and opened the message. "Hey mate, guess what, management meeting at 4.00 this afternoon. It's apparently important so." I groaned replying to the message thanking him for letting me know. I then clicked on Justin's name and replied in a cherry yet chilled tone. "Hey bub, yeah I have a management meeting at 4 but we can chill after that." I pressed send and got out of bed. I didn't notice the time until I glanced at the clock as I walked into the bathroom. It was already 11.37 my eyes widened.

Harry's P.O.V

As we walked through the doors of the 1D building I let go of Lou's hand and sighed we walked towards the elevator when the receptionist giggled and said

"You two are the cutest." My eyes widened in confusion and scare I looked at Louis and his expression seemed to match mine. Did she know about us? Did she find out? What if she tells management? Lou and I seriously need to be more careful.

As we stepped out of the elevator I looked to my left and saw the rest of the boys sitting on the couch. I knew the boys knew about us but how did she know? Is she just a fan "shipping" us? Or has she seen something she shouldn't?

I hadn't realized I was day dreaming until Louis shook me a little with a concerned look in his eyes. I just smiled and walked over to the seats and sat down next to Zayn who was smiling at his phone. I wondered what was making him so happy lately. Was there some girl he's been seeing that he hasn't told us about? I stared at my knees until we were called into the meeting.

I sat down at the large conference table next Louis which I knew I would regret. I look around the room, Simon, the management team, our publicist and various others of people I barely knew that controlled our future sat hunched around the large rectangular table, all wearing the same serious expression. I smiled and awkward and smile and turned in the direction of Simon. He sighed then began. He talked about the upcoming tour in 2015 and the tour dates, he handed us all a list of the shows, which I barely glanced at. I only felt like I had began to pay attention when Simon mentioned my name.

"Harry and Louis, could you please care to explain to me. This!" he asked holding up a magazine with the title "LARRY PASH, the famous 'couple' were found kissing in a local London café" my eyes widened and my stomach dropped as Simon slid the magazine across the table towards Louis and I. I could barely look at it the one photo that could end our career. The one thing could change Lou and I's life together. They're going to kick us out. They're going to cancel the tour. And worst of all my families going to murder me. I looked to my side as Louis put his head on the table and wrapped his arms around his head. I rubbed his back and looked at Simon knowing I would be the one explaining this. I took a deep breath and began.

"I'm sorry, we can't take it anymore all this stupid hiding, banning making stupid rules, we are over it 99% of the fans have figured it out, I'm so sorry but I love Louis. Can't we just tell them already, four years it's been four depressing years of hiding can't they just know, we are sick of hiding." I said as my breath hitched. Simon thought for a moment then spoke.

"First of all, would the rest of the boys be comfortable with you two telling the fans about your relationship?" Simon asked looking to the other boys. Louis sat up and wiped his face sniffling.

"Yes, definitely." Liam said like it was the easiest thing in the world. I knew Niall would agree he's got problems three times the size of ours.

"Well yeah." Niall said looking around the room. His mind was still focused on other things and I could completely understand. I looked to Zayn.

"Why wouldn't I be ok with it?" Zayn spoke with a scared tone in his voice. Something was up with him and I'm worried about him. I looked at him and he smiled sadly back. I hope he's ok.

"Well that's said then. We will organize an interview and you two can tell in your own time." Simon spoke while the rest of the team jotted stuff down on their computers or books. Louis looked confused.

"What? That's it then you're not mad? You don't want us to lie?" Louis asked we both looked to Simon contemplated.

"You boys have gone through so much stuff and most of the fans have figured it out. May as well tell them and be honest. You need respect from your fans and you won't get that if you have to keep lying to them." Simon spoke. As if on cue all us boys got up and enclosed Simon in a group hug with Louis still sniffling in the background.

I noticed almost at the same time as Simon that Niall practically fell into his chair. He looked so sad and caught up he could barely feel happy for Lou and I, which I very much understood. I looked to Simon with the same confirming look before he dismissed the management team and left just him and the boys and I. I took a deep breath dreading what would come next.

"What's up Niall?" Simon asked cautiously in a concerning tone.

"Well, I haven't told you this yet. Please hear me out completely before you give me a life lesion or a lecture." Niall practically begged. Simon didn't say a word gesturing for him to continue with a small confirming nod. "Well about a week ago I found my girlfriend Lexi, is pregnant. I am so sorry. Simon I never planned to screw up like that. And the hardest part is as much as I love her and want to have a family I wish it never happened because.... Well because Lexi has.... Third stage leukemia." I looked to Simon as he tried to take it in, he didn't say anything. A range of emotions swept across his face within a small amount of time, I just hoped he wouldn't do anything Irrational. Niall took a deep breath and continued. "Simon I don't know what to do. She's having twins. I'm so scared. She can't get treatment otherwise we could lose the twins and she won't get an abortion. I don't want her to. But she in the third stage so they are going to monitor her the whole pregnancy. The babies are due while where on tour..." Niall trailed off and looked down. Zayn began to rub his back comforting him.

Simon thought himself through before he even considered speaking. He looked to Niall and took a deep breath.

"I'm so sorry Niall I know how much you love Lexi, she's been your rock through everything this band has gone through. I'm happy for you that you kids have decided to keep the twins. It's a good decision although you should realize the risks that go with it. Niall I'm not worried about the band at the moment. I'm worried about you. You can take as much time as you need before the tour starts and I will schedule the dates around you two. Now it's your decision whether you tell the fans or we keep this private." He stated Squeezing Niall's shoulder. Niall didn't say a word he just got up from his seat and gave Simon a long meaningful hug. "I'm proud of you for telling me." I could tell by the tone in Simon's voice that he knew that we had known before he did. He's always known how close and strong our group is. I looked at him with a thankful look.

"Thank you Simon, well lexis being admitted next Wednesday to the hospital. Is it alight if I have a couple weeks off? I'll come to the boy's interview though?" Niall asked gesturing towards Lou and I who were now holding hands under the table. Simon nodded and smiled. We all gathered together in a group hug, patting Niall on the back.

I sighed, these next few months are going to be ten times harder than I had imagined.