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Chapter 5 - Mistakes

Justin's P.O.V

What was I thinking? He's a guy. Am I Gay? No you can't be Justin. You have millions of girls screaming about your every move. I have had girlfriends. It's not possible. I'm not Gay. I'm not gay.

Why can't I just forget about this? It was a stupid mistake. He's just a stupid guy. I don't like him or anything of the sort. He's a guy. No, no, no, I can't like him. I can't even. Just no.

A million thoughts ran through my mind. It couldn't be possible, I have been in love with girls. I like girls. I am not gay. I tucked my head into my knees and continued to rock myself in the corner of the bathroom.

Liam's P.O.V {Surprise :)}

As I opened my eyes, looked to my side to see nothing but an empty bed. Shit what have I done? I groaned. I probably just confused the hell out of Justin. Why would I do that? If I cared about him so much, why would I do this to him? Why didn't I just push my 'feelings' aside and just ignore them? If I really cared about Justin I would have just ignored my stupid feelings.

I wanted to sink into the ground and disappear but I forced myself out of the bed. I pulled my pants on and threw on the first shirt I saw in my bag. I fixed my hair and walked out of the hotel room and made my way to Justin's hotel room. I need to fix this.

Louis' P.O.V {Double Surprise :)}

I stared at the roof as Harry cuddled into my chest, my thoughts slipping back to last night. I remember that I was waiting in the lobby for Justin and Liam for like 10 minutes but they didn't come. I called Liam several times but he didn't pick up his phone. Did they go without me? Are they okay? Eventually I just came back to mine and Harry's room and went to bed.

I reached to side table to retrieve my phone, trying not to wake Harry in the process. I opened my messages and sent a text to Liam 'Where are you? What happened last night?'. I put my phone back down. Harry's eyes flickered open.

"Sorry babe, did I wake you?" I apologized.

"Nah, it's ok" he stated, smiling warmly. His hair was all messy. Pointing up in random places, he looked adorable. I brushed a strand of his hair out of his eyes as I cupped his face. I leaned in and placed a kiss on his beautiful lips moving them in sync with his. I closed my eyes, deepening the kiss. I nibbled on his bottom lip asking for entrance to which we gladly allowed and our tongues began roaming each other's mouths, Harry let out a small moan, I smiled into the kiss then slowly pulled away. I pecked his lips one last time.

"I" *kiss* "Fucking" *kiss* "Love" *kiss* "You" *kiss* I pulled away and giggled. He bit his lip and smirked.

"I love you too ya big idiot." He replied, kissing me again. I glanced at the clock as Harry cuddled back into my chest.

"Hey what are we gonna do today babe?" He asked, glancing up at me with loving eyes.

"Sight seeing?" he questioned. He lifted his eyebrow at me in a 'seriously?' way.

"I don't know, I don't feel like wearing disguises all day." I complained. He looked frustrated.

"Please BooBear." He begged giving me big puppy dog eyes. I chuckled silently, how can I say no to that? I groaned.

"Fine." I simply stated.

Justin's P.O.V

The tears began to poor down my face, over my cheeks. I nuzzled my head into my knees and sobbed. What the fuck is wrong with me? I can't sleep with a guy. I just can't do that! And yet, I just did. Fuckin' hell. I'm so demented. I couldn't be gay... I just can't be. I would be proving all those haters right. I pulled out my phone, sniffling and opened twitter as I scrolled through my page It felt like the only thing on there were hate comments. I cried even harder. I read through the comments. One said "hows he evin famos? I dont undrstnd, hes a disgusting humn. inside and out #notalent " great English... I read another "gay bastard you are so disgusting and a fuckin prick" I dropped my phone on the ground not caring if it smashed and stormed back into the living room. Rummaging through my bag. My hand grasped the bottle of pills, I walked quickly to the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of water. I chugged back the whole bottle of pills, washing them down with water, not minding the consequences. I crawled back into the bed pulling the covers up over me and closed my eyes for the last time.