The Monster Within

2. Stupid Boy

I had just returned to my home which is a small house in the woods.
Fancy, huh?

I had gone to town for some groceries and other items, because within the next few days..
I'd go through the full change.
At least, that's what I call it.

Once every month for a whole 48 hours I become this.. Creature. I lose all sanity and humanity to the monster that nags at me from the inside.
It's a disgusting and horrifying experience.
Yet, so exhilarating.

I'd have to make another trip tomorrow for a few more things.

I opened my rickety front door and stepped inside. My home was small, dirty, dark, and dusty. I really liked it though.

I find the dark embrace of my home.. Comforting.
I don't like bright light.

I found this old shack of a house abandoned a few weeks after I murdered my family. No one had come by to claim it, so I made it my own.

   About finances.. Let's just say, I have some clever ways of breaking into banks. I actually have a floorboard that conceals a box full of the cash i'd stolen.

I'm completely alone. Some say that loneliness causes insanity. Too bad I'm already insane.

I enjoy being alone. I don't like talking to people. Or talking in general.

I do like to sing though. I'll sing while I'm washing dishes in my moldy sink. It's quite relaxing.

Sometimes I like to think back on the young girl I once was.
I was carefree. Imaginative. Kind. Loving. Gentle. Patient. Friendly.

I look at who I am now..
Angry. Fierce. Sly. Guarded. Hateful. Anxious. Malicious.

Who knew people could change?

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I had put all of my groceries away and I found myself suddenly exhausted.

I usually don't sleep much. I mean, how can you when you feel as if a million voices are trapped inside your head taunting you?

But, tonight I was actually tired.

I threw on a black tank top and some shorts, then I lied down on my stiff bed. My eyes wandered around in my dark room, until they shut closed.

I let the embrace of sleep consume me.

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The next morning I got myself ready to go to town. Hopefully it would be a brief visit.

I just needed to buy some snacks, planks of wood and a ton of nails.

I usually boarded myself in my house while I'm experiencing the full change.

It would be too dangerous if I ever left my home. For me, and for everyone within 200 miles.

I glanced in my crackled mirror. I wore a black hoodie, black leggings, and black boots.
I usually only wore black.
My dark brown hair was laying down flat. And my bright blue, ghost-like eyes seemed haunting as usual.