You Make Me Feel Alive , Again .

Chapter Eleven : An Explanation .

Fionna's Point of View

I'm really nervous to tell Marshall what really happened to me after I left . I feel like he's going to start a scene , he's very overdramatic when it comes to me and our baby . Even though a lot of things happened in such a short amount of time , I'm still very happy to have my babygirl in my arms ; Marshall is holding her now , he hasn't stopped looking at her . There are tears of joy running down his face and just looking at both of them , makes me so happy .

We still haven't decided on a name , because I haven't seen Marshall in a long time so we haven't really had the chance to talk about it . I don't know if she's human , a vampire or both ; the doctor and Marshall both told me that we'll have to wait till she's five years old to find out ; that's when vampires develop their fangs . I don't care if she's a vampire , a human or both . I only care about her health , and her happiness ; as long as she's happy , that's all that matters .

Her birth was a bit unexpected , due to the fact that I was only seven months pregnant . She was supposed to be due in two more months , but they had to take her out of me before something bad could happen to both of us .. I really didn't feel any pain until after her birth . Everything that happened was kind of a blur , I can hardly remember what happened but , some memory of it still haunts my mind .

" Fionna " Marshall breathes out , waiting for me to say something . I'm sure he wants an explanation ; I bet he's wondering why our baby was born so early , why I took so long to get home , etc .. I'm really nervous to tell him everything that happened . Even though I don't remember it very well , it's still there in the back of my mind " I love you , and I'm sorry for putting all this stress on you right now , but I gotta know what happened to you .. " He puts our baby down on her little hospital bassinet . He sits down on the bed and takes my hands in his . I carefully sit up , and sigh .

The pain is still there , Marshall still hasn't seen the stab wound on my stomach and I'm pretty sure he's gonna see it sooner or later . The nurse gave me some morphine to ease the pain from when they stabbed me and from the birth , so the pain is hardly there but I still feel it . Marshall looks deep into my eyes , I can almost feel like he can see right through me . And , it scares me .

I want to tell him the truth , I just want to cry into his chest and tell him everything that happened but , I'm sure he's gonna go crazy if he really found out what happened ; he would search every corner in Ooo to find who was responsible for this . He's waiting for me to say something , he's giving me one of his signature stares . I can tell he's not playing around , he wants to know what happened and he wants to know now .

" Okay , okay .. " I sigh and close my eyes . I'm trying to remember exactly what happened , but most of it was a blur because of how much blood I lost . " I went to the store , and everything was normal " I open my eyes , and close them again ; trying to recap every moment " Someone approached me , and it looked very shady . I tried to ignore it and walk away , but it grabbed my wrist .. " I stop and look at Marshall , tears forming in my eyes ; everything's so clear now , I remember exactly what happened and it breaks my heart all over again . I tried everything to forget about what happened to me , but it still comes back . " It stabbed me several times , exactly on my stomach . Everything went black , but I do remember hearing Cake's voice before that .. " I gulp as I look at Marshall . He's sweating , his fangs are out and his hands are turned into fists ; that's never a good sign , that's just a sign he's going to kill .

" I guess Cake took me to the hospital , and the nurse told me they had to take her out of me as soon as possible because it could affect her and me . When I woke up , I heard her soft cries and I knew all of it was real .. " I finished my sentence with a shaky voice . Marshall was pacing back and forth in the room , it was making me nervous . He hadn't said anything . All I could hear was his heavy breathing and our baby's soft noises .

" Fionna , I can't do this right now ! " Marshall turned to me with red and teary eyes , he ran his hands all over his head and I could tell he was shaking . I gulped as I feared for my life and our babies . I'm sure he wouldn't hurt us on purpose but sometimes he can get out of control and he can do things he could regret later . " I'm sorry " He whispered angrily before slamming the door behind him . I know he's going to go find whoever did this to me , and I wish I could stop him but I can't . Marshall promised me that he was going to stop killing animals and humans , but that didn't stop him this time .

" Fionna ? " I look up and see Gumball in the doorway , I'm pretty sure he heard when Marshall slammed the door , I'm pretty sure the entire castle heard it . I'm glad he showed up , I really needed to see him ; sometimes , Marshall can drive me a bit crazy , so it feels good to have someone as sane as Gumball . I'm happy he's here too , because that would mean that he could meet her . " Are you okay ? -- " He stops his sentence as soon as he sees her in her bassinet .  

He approaches me , and gives me a sweet peck on my forehead . I smile as he walks over to where my baby is . He looks down at her and smiles . You may think that is inappropriate for my best friend to give me sweet kisses like that but me and Marshall don't mind , I find it very sweet . " She's beautiful , Fionna . She looks almost identical to you " I smile at his comment . It is very true , she does look a lot like me but she has a lot of Marshall's features ; I'm glad she got Marshall's hair color , I've always loved black hair . She has my beautiful blue eyes , and the rest of her face is a mixture of Marshall and I . 

" Gumball , I really think I messed up .. " I hug my knees and look at the bedsheet covering my feet . Gumball sighs and sits beside me on the bed . He lifts up my chin and looks into my eyes . " Fionna , You didn't mess up . You told him the truth , that's what he wanted " He grabs my hand and rubs his thumb against my knuckles , comfortingly " The way he reacted to the truth was not your fault , okay ? "

Gumball's right , it's not my fault . I do feel guilty for telling him the truth but he deserved it . I just don't want our baby to grow up with a dysfunctional family , I don't want her to see her dad kill innocent humans or animals just because he's thirsty for blood . My baby deserves to have the best life we can give her , and it scares me that she's going to be like her dad . I love Marshall with all my heart but his bad habits scare me , he promised he would stop but I know it's not that easy . 

Marshall and I really haven't talked things out , we haven't even had time to talk about a name for our baby . I was thinking of naming her ' Ariel ' , it's such a innocent and beautiful name , I feel like it fits her perfectly but I have to talk to Marshall about it , too .

" Gumball , it's just .. " I sigh as tears fill my eyes , I hate crying in front of people . It makes me feel weak and vulnerable " I love Marshall , I do .. but his bad habits scare me . I don't want Ariel to witness that , you know ? " Gumball smiles as he hears me say her name , it kind of makes me smile , too .

I need to stop being sad about Marshall , I'll have to deal with him later . I don't know where he is but I do know what he's doing and just thinking about it sends shivers down my spine . Right now , I'm just happy to be spending time with my best friend and with my beautiful daughter . She is the love of my life , apart from Marshall and Gumball .

Gumball is the love of my life , too , believe it or not . But , in a friendly way .

Even though I've only known you for a couple of hours , I'm deeply in love with you , sweetie .