Frank was literally shocked. He saw Gerard crying. Gerard thought: "I know. Now Frank read my notebook. Oh my god. why did I write it or left Frank alone in the room?"
Frank came next to Gerard. Gerard took a deep breath. Frank sat next to him and said:
"Gerard... I dont even know how to start.... I am sorry for how you feel..."
"Frank, you dont need to say that. You dont have to feel sorry for me. I know I had to not leave you alone in the room. I didnt want you to find the notebook. Yeah, I know what you think about me now... that I am weak person who acts strong, the person who is too conceited to ask anyone for help...."- Gerard cried.
"No, Gerard, I dont think about you like that... But why you never asked anyone for help?"- Frank asked.
"Dont you understand? I cant. Everyone will think I am weak person, who needs to go to mental hospital. I dont wanna go there. I wanna get better. But I dont wanna see therapists or be in mental hospital. Or everyone will start shouting at me because I am badly depressed and I never told anyone. But now you know...."- Gerard said.
"I would love to help you, Gerard. "- Frank looked at Gerard.
"Frank, you dont need to do that. I cant escape my depression, self harm or suicidal thoughts. "- Gerard said to Frank.
Frank decided to ask:
"When was the last time you wanted to commit suicide?"
"Few days ago. I was badly cutting . That was the day you came to our tour bus and asked for joinning the band"- Gerard answered.
Frank hugged Gerard. Then Frank smiled and said:
"Gerard, I think I know how to help you! Lets go to our room."
Frank took Gerard hand. Then they came to their room. Frank opened the drawer where Gerard hid the things he self harmed with. Frank took a sack. Then he took all the blades, knives and scissors and threw them into the sack. Frank smiled and said:
"Now these will be with me. You will not take them. I am going to hide them. So dont touch them."
After that, Frank decided to go to restaurant with Gerard. Frank tried to make Gerard feel good. They sat down. Frank asked:
"How do you feel?"
"I dont know... I guess, I feel fine"- Gerard answered.
Frank smiled and touched Gerard hand.
There was amusement park next to their tour bus. Frank and Gerard decided to go there. They really had fun together. Gerard even forgot about self harm, suicidal thoughts for a while. He felt happy!
In late evning, Frank and Gerard came back to tour bus. They were smiling and happy. Then they came to their room. Gerard said :
"Frank... thank you. For an amazing day"
"You are welcome, Gerard"- Frank smiled.
Frank was thinking and smiling to Gerard. Then he asked:
"Gerard.. could you show me your hands? Dont be scared"
Gerard took a deep breath and rolled up his sweatshirt sleeves. His both hands, especially wrists, were full of cuts and scars. One big scar on his left hand was from trying to commit suicide. Frank took his hands and looked at them. Then Frank kissed his hands and said:
" Oh, Gerard... it will be fine. Let your scars heal. You will be fine"
"Alright, Frank. I will do better"- Gerard looked at Frank.
Then Frank and Gerard kissed.
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Frerard. Save me.
Teen FictionGerard Way always had a difficult life. He was bullied when he was younger, he had struggles with suicidal thoughts, self harm, alcohol. But... one day one boy named Frank Iero came to his life. Gerard was very happy with Frank. Frank helped him all...
