Take me to the king. I don't have much to bring.
My heart is torn in pieces it's my offering
Take me to the king, truth is I'm tired
Options are few, I'm trying to pray but where are you?
I'm all churched out, hurt and abused.
I can't face what's left to do.
Truth is I'm weak, no strength to fight.
No tears to cry, even if I tried, but still my soul refuses to die.
#Chapter25
Here they were again in the hospital. Except this time Essence life was really at risk. They all sat in the hospital, no one spoke. Every last one of them was feeling guilty.
Carson stared straight ahead, he was the only one who wasn't feeling guilty. He was angry, angry at Essence for doing a such thing.
She could've came to him, like she usually does. What was it that she, they couldn't handle this time around.
He knew it was hard but was it really worth her life? Did it get that bad?
Keith paced he was feeling guilty for not being there for her , for not coming to check on her for his selfish reasons.
He was hurting badly and it took everything within him to not breakdown and cry, but August and the girls were already shedding tears.
They were constantly blaming themselves for what Essence did. It wasn't their fault, this was a choice Essence chose to cut herself.
Julio sat there and all he could think was why did he leave her? He saw that she wasn't okay but he decided to leave anyways. He wasn't only here because he felt guilty, also because he loved her.
Hennessy grabbed Myles and Yasmeen's hands. "Grab each other hands lets pray" She says and they obliged with no hesitation.
They all stood, hand in hand, heads bowed.
"God, I know I haven't been to church in a while , but I come to you right now begging you to please put your hand on my best friend head. She, we need you. Please don't give up on her god. I need her I don't think I can do this thing called life without her. I've been selfish these last few months, I never really thought about how she felt, god please" Hennessy didn't finished she only broke into tears. Myles rubbed his thumb against her hand slowly.
"I don't know what I'm gonna do if I loose her" Carson says softly. When he did something clicked in Treasure's head. It was Essence. Essence was the girl he was in love with.
She let go of August hand and pulled Carson in a tight hug. "Me to Car"
They all said their prayers and Amens before sitting down. Nobody still didn't speak. The question of Essence life heavily on their minds.
Hours later it was now 10 at night, they all were still wide awake, more nervous than ever.
"Family of Essence Brown?" A doctor yells looking around causing them to jump up and practically run to her.
"Here, and please don't ask for parents, I'm her Auntie and I'm grown" Olivia mumbled.
The doctor nodded her head before speaking. "Well we were able to stop the bleeding but the amount of blood loss she had caused her to go into a coma"
"Will she be okay?" Yasmeen asked her voice cracking. They all were afraid of the answer they'd receive.
The look on the doctors face caused them to get nervously.
"Doc, will she?" Keith says softly.
"There's a low chance of Essence to survive, but only time can tell. Essence is very strong but , it seems as if she's not fighting for her life, but like I said only time will be able to tell, we will keep y'all updated "
"Could we see her?"
"Visiting hours are over , but come back tomorrow"
"How much I gotta pay?" August says going into his pockets. The lady stoped him and bit her lip.
"Fuck me" She says causing them all to look at her crazy.
"You really want me to fuck you when my sister could possibly be on her fucking death bed?! The fuck yo?!" August yelled getting angry. Treasure shook her head and stood in front of him.
"How much ma'am?" Treasure asked with a hint of attitude in her voice, she didn't even care the bitch wanted August , she just wanted to see her bestfriend.
August grabbed all the money from his pocket , which were about 100 thousand and put it in the Doctor's hand.
"What room?" Keith says.
"256 , right down the hall, be quiet" the nurse mumbled. They all nodded and made their way to Essence room.
Once they made it there they all took a deep breath before walking in. Looking at Essence lifeless body caused all their hearts to break and waterworks to come again.
They all walked into her room and closed the door. They walked over to her bed , all of them looking at her , tears rolling down their faces
*
Essence saw nothing, it was pitch black. All she heard was voices, familiar ones.
"Please Essence dont give up" Someone says and Essence mentally shook her head. She wanted to go, she really didn't want to wake up from this coma.
But for some reason she didn't stop breathing, she didn't stopped hearing. She wanted to, she knew it was selfish of her to try to take her life when people loved her but she was tired.
She just couldn't fight the demons this time around. More than anything she didn't want to wake up, she asked god for forgiveness but she also asked him to take her away.
Away from the pain, the nightmares, the cold words that repeated over and over in her head that made her feel worthless.
She mentally begged him to take her, make her stop breathing but she never did.
If she was to awake from the coma , god and everyone else will hate her for what she'll do.
*
Crying yet? No? Well get ready cos somebody's about to chop onions.
But I wrote this in 20 minutes 🙂. Me proud.
End Of Chapter 25 🥀
