Feeling like I'm touching the ceiling,
when I'm with you I can't breathe,
boy you do some to me...
#Chapter15
Thursday.
"Open your legs Essence you know you like it" Her uncle says forcing Essence legs open. Essence shook her head.
"Nothing but a hoe" Essence heard her mother say. Essence shook her head again. She was unable to speak , she was numb.
"You wanted this, you wanted-"
Essence head shot up, she was now panting , breathing hard. She'd never had dream like that. Her mother was never in her nightmares.
Essence cried and for the first time in years She felt lonely. She couldn't go to no one because nobody knew about her getting raped and she didn't feel like hearing the girls asking what her dreams were about over and over again.
Essence felt the urge to throw up so she ran to the bathroom and Emptied her stomach in the toilet. She'd been throwing up a lot lately.
When she was done she wiped her mouth and went back into her room.
She grabbed her phone checking the time. 4:02 am she had school in only 2 hours. She texted Carson doubting he'd be woke.
Essence: Carson , I need you.
It only took him a minute to respond.
Carson😙: huh? Essence why are you up?
Essence: just give me your address.
After he gave her his address Essence slid on her bunny slippers and silently went out the door.
Once she made it to his house the door was already open so she just let herself in. She closed the door and turned to face Carson. He stared into her glossy green eyes.
Her eyes that once reminded him of grass on a sunny day whenever her eyes lit up , now reminded him of a storm at a place where it rarely rained & when it did there was a storm.
Essence wrapped her arms around him and cried on his chest. Essence never cried so much and she usually didn't let people see the vulnerable side of her , but she couldn't help it.
Carson held her rubbing her hair. "Essence?"
She looked at him. "Hmm?"
"Come on" He says grabbing her hand and taking her up the steps. He led her to his room.
"Carson.. I wanna forget it... help me forget it please" Essence cried out. Carson stared at her sadly , he wish he could help her forget it.
"How Ess? You can't forget it, you just can't"
Essence shook her head and took of the night gown she was wearing and revealed her naked body.
"Essence no. For one your not yourself and two are you forgetting I'm seeing your friend?"
Essence sighed and slid the night gown back on. Essence stared at Carson and bursted into tears all over again. Carson picked up Essence and layed them on the bed. Essence cried into his chest.
"Carson you smell good" Essence says giggling. Carson stared at her in confusion.
"Essence your a mess"
