Dinner was just finished and I sat down watching Jiyeon play with her toys, while Jungkook was washing the dishes.
"Jiyeon it's bedtime," Jungkook said coming to stand beside the couch in the living room.
"Alright," Jiyeon said tired.
"I'll take her Jungkook-ah," I said smiling at my boyfriend.
I pecked Jungkook's lips before lifting Jiyeon into my arms. Her warmth surrounded me as she wrapped his short legs around my hips, and placed her tiny face on my shoulder. I walked her upstairs to her bedroom and placed her gently on her light gray bed.
"Will you sleep with me tonight eomma? I feel cold," Jiyeon asked.
"Of course princess. I just need to talk with appa for a bit and then I'll join you," I said kissing her soft nose.
"Ok," she whispered.
She turned away from me and wrapped herself with her blanket.
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I quietly walked out of her room and walked back downstairs to find Jungkook half asleep on the couch.
"Jungkook? Are you awake?" I asked the sleeping bunny.
Jungkookie nodded his head slightly in response.
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"I'm sleeping with Jiyeon tonight by her request," I shared.
"Aww. I wanted you all for myself tonight," Jungkook sighed.
"You usually do," I chuckled when he pouted.
"On another note I wanted to talk about procedure 134340 for a little bit," I said turning serious.
Jungkook sighed and looked away from me.
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"Can we talk about this when I'm more awake?" he asked.
I looked hard at him. It seemed like he was trying to avoid the subject at hand.
"Why is it that you always use the same excuse? Do you not want to have my child?" I asked.
"Taehyung it isn't like that. I'm just tired," Kookie said.
"Stop making excuses Jungkook," I said looking away from his stare.
"They aren't excuses. Why is it that you're always thinking about the future anyway? Let's live in the present," he said.
"But the future is important! Can't you see that I'm planning my future with you involved?!" I said becoming louder.
"I know you are! It isn't like I'm planning one without you. Just try to understand what I'm saying too! We'll plan the future when it's necessary," Jungkook said.
"So what I think isn't of significance. What I want to do isn't important is it?" I asked.
"That isn't what I said! Why are you overreacting over nothing!" Jungkook asked.
"Nothing?! I'm talking about your unwillingness to talk about your potential child! Since I'm overreacting I'm just going to get the fuck out of your house" I said.
I had enough of his bullshit. I just wanted a child with him. Is it difficult to have a simple conversation?
I walked into the kitchen and gathered the belongings I brought over for the sleepover.
"Taehyung I'm sorry," Jungkook whispered watching my every move.
"You know what? Apology declined. It seems to me that you'd rather just have sex than a child," I shared.
I ignored the sadness that consumed me when I said that. What else could he want from me?
"Are you telling me that you don't believe in my love for you?" Jungkook asked.
"Maybe..?" I said.
"Taehyung please don't run away again," Jungkook chocked out.
He was facing away from me when I looked up to his face painted with tears.
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"You've been putting off the conversation for too long Jungkook. Too long to the point where I'm questioning your love for me," I shared.
"I know and I'm sorry," Jungkook said while coughing.
I walked up to him and wiped his tears because I just couldn't hold myself back.
"I'm just I don't know ... scared? What if the procedure doesn't succeed and you die? What if our child doesn't make it? We'll always be living with that burden floating over us. Just thinking like that forced me to think about the present instead of the unpredictable future," Jungkook said.
"These are the things you have to share with me. I didn't know you were actually thinking about it," I said.
I kissed his wet cheeks.
"I'm sorry for getting angry and escalating things," I said sighing.
Jungkook pulled my closer by the waist and placed his lips on my neck.
"I'm sorry too. I should've listened and shared my true feelings," he murmured into my neck.
I hugged him.
"Oh I almost forgot. You should clear your schedule the week after next week," Jungkook said.
"Why?" I asked curiously.
"It's a surprise," Jungkook grinned mischievously.
"Really now?" I asked excitedly.
Like that our argument was soon forgotten and some weight from my shoulders was lifted.
