The struggle is real

Chapter 1: Memories will always haunt you.

Beatrice pov: 13 years old

" Caleb please slow down! You're going to kill us!" I scream, although the idea of dying thrills me, I can't let Caleb die. He actually has friends, a girlfriend, a good life ahead of him. He might be 16, but we are still like

Two- peas in a pod. He helps me with my cutting and stuff like that. I just want to escape the bullying-escape this world. "Caleb please pull over! You're drunk!" I scream. " shut up Tris! I am driving just fine!"

" Caleb! My name isn't Tris it's Beatrice! You're so drunk!" I say.

" Its a nickname. Duh!"

" where in earth did it come from?"

"I dunno!" He slurs.

"CALEB WATCH OUT!" I scream.

We roll into a ditch and I feel pain.

We land upside down and I see Caleb is knocked out and is in a unnatural position. I struggle to pull out my phone and call the police. They show up 5 minuets later and pull me out of the car. That's all I remember before I blackout.******************************************************************************************************

I wake up in the hospital and see mom holding my hand smiling down at me with tears in her eyes. " where is Caleb?" I manage to croak out.

A sad look spreads across her face.

" He's gone." She cries.

Her words echo through my mind.

He's gone

He's gone

He's gone

Right when I thought life couldn't get any worse, it got worse. Now my daily life consists of:

Cutting

Grieving

Getting bully

Getting drunk

Doing drugs

Going to parties

Eating small portions and throwing it up.

Why me?

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5 years later:

Summer is over and we just moved to Chicago to leave our old life behind.

To leave Caleb behind.

I sigh and lay down on my bed in my new room. Tomorrow is my first day at my new school. I can't make any friends. I need to keep my head down.

I am a new person.

I'm not really goth, but I wear a lot of black because I love the Color.

I can't let anyone in my life right now.

I don't want to go through the pain of losing someone again.

My family is rich, so they are almost never home. I walk into my secret recording booth behind my mirror and record a song that I wrote.

It's called 'forever' ( originally by rascal flatts... I also recommend you read the lyrics!!!)

Ooh. Hiya.

I miss you so much

Your light, your smile, your way

and everything about us.

Now you're gone,

You're still here in my heart, in my tears.

Yeah you sure left your mark.

And we were just getting started.

[Chorus:]

It wasn't long enough,

It wasn't long enough together

but it was long enough,

yeah it was long enough to last forever.

Sometimes I get so mad, I scream, I swear at this

cause this isn't how we planned it.

I sit here in a cold room

prayin', waitin' on you,

to run back through that door,

to the way is was before

you left

[Chorus]

I've been cheated (I've been Cheated)

Defeated (defeated, to believe)

To believe that you're gone.

(You're gone, you're gone)

Ooh it was wrong (so wrong, so wrong)

It wasn't long enough

It wasn't long enough

It wasn't long enough

No

[Chorus]

It wasn't long enough [x6]

I wrote that song about Caleb.

I don't let myself cry about him. I can only break down every few months.

I decide to go to bed.

First day at a new school tomorrow

Hey initiates! Well this is my new fanfic! I have previously written

Met in Abnegation and Faction high! In This fanfic, Tris uses songs to express how she is feeling so I HIGHLY RECOMMEND YOU READ THE LYRICS!!!!!

Remember to be eaton that cake!