perfectly wrong // S.M ( COMPLETED )

19

My eyes wide in horror when I see the person standing in front of me .

" I hate you " I scream at him before running out of the house and slamming the door shut .

I run towards Shawn's car and get in . He can't be back . I hate him with all of my heart . Everyone keeps on telling me that I should forgive him  but no one knows the real reason why he left .

Even my mom doesn't know

I only know the real reason

" Princess are you okay ? "

I shake my head while staring at nothing . All the memories keep rushing back

" yeah I'm fine " I give him a small smile

A smile doesn't always mean that you are happy . Sometimes you smile to hide your tears

" I know you're not " he says hugging me " but if you still don't trust me enough ,I'm not gonna force you on telling me anything "

We stayed in this position for some seconds before I broke the hugg

" can we just go ? " I ask him , he nods and starts driving

We drive back to our secret spot , we lay down in between the flowers and I close my eyes .

" he's back " I whisper to myself .

Sometimes I wonder why am I here . Since the day I was born , bad luck never left my side . Whenever I'm happy something bad happens to remind me that I can't be happy

" who's back ? " Shawn says bringing me out of my thoughts . He sits up and holds my hand

I sit up too and take a deep breath .

" my stepdad " I whisper looking at the ground .

" shouldn't you be happy that he's back ? "

I shake my head no before I look at the sky and stare at the birds flying in the sky free , happy .

I wish I could be like those birds

I see Shawn from the corner of my eyes taking a cigarette from his pocket

" can you not , please ? I hate the smoke that comes out of the cigarette"

He nods and put it back in his pocket

" are you okay ? " he asks me again

I look at him for some seconds before I speak " my stepdad ... h-he well he i- "

" if you don't wanna tell me it's fine , I just don't wanna see you upset like that " Shawn says cutting me off

I don't deserve him

" my dad died when I was 5 and my mom got married again .  my mom always used to work late  . One night while my mom was at work , I was supposed to sleep at my friend's house but something happened and I came home . And that when I saw it . My stepdad was cheating on my mom . I didn't tell her anything . And later , when he knew about my eating disorder , he took it as a change to yell at me and leave the house . And since then my mom has been blaming me , and she has been thinking that it's my fault if he left . and that's why she ignores me and barely talks to me ... But I know that he left to be with h-her " I say my voice cracking at the last sentence

He pulls me in a hug before we lay back in between the flowers . We then stare at the sky letting the silence full the place . Shawn wraps his arm around my shoulder and I lay my head on his chest , I could hear his heart beats .

I just wish my life was different .

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