Mr. Harry Styles

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I just stared at the doctor. Harry had taken me to the hospital just to show what they would do when they removed his penis. Directly, it was as if I wanted to back away from all this. They would open it all up, pull the penis inwards and make a vagina. I just stared at the doctor. Okay, I had suspected that they could do more than from what I could have imagined, but this was too much.

"And Harry will get feelings when it comes to sex."

Directly it was as if the angry Niall appeared. I felt the anger boiling up.

"My God! You'll cut up his penis and remove the balls and the only thing you think about is his sex life?"

Harry grabbed my hand and tried to calm me down, but I stood up and I shook my head.

"Damn, this is sick. You'll just do that, build something inward?"

Harry gulped and he made me sit down again.

"Niall, that's okay."

I had big eyes and I turned my head to look straight at Harry.

"They are going to fuck up everything you have down there!" I shouted. "Aren't you the least bit worried about that?"

Harry smiled and he stroked my hand gently.

"No, darling, I'm not worried. This is what I want."

I swallowed, I sat down. It felt like I went from a normal life right into a dream.

"But they will cut..."

Harry interrupted me quickly.

"And he's good at changing gender. This isn't about you Niall, it's about what I want and I want to do this."

The doctor smiled calmly at me, as if I would agree to this.

"Harry has already signed all the papers and he'll also get a new Social Security number, telling the world that he's a woman."

I swallowed and I looked at them both.

"This is crazy!"

Harry smiled and he continued to caress my hand to maintain control.

"No, it's my dream." he whispered tenderly. "It's I who make the choice and not you. I don't even care if this will be a good operation. I don't want my penis down there and he'll fix that problem."

I turned my head and stared straight into the picture, as the doctor had shown us. An image of how they would do it all, with Harry. I swallowed and I tried to calm myself down. It was about Harry, not what I wanted.

"But that looks like..."

Harry laughed and smiled big.

"It looks like something that can be done." he replied quickly. "Niall, see it as an advantage for you. You'll be seen as a normal person and not as a gay."

I swallowed and looked at him again, frowning.

"So it's all about me?"

Harry shook his head.

"No, it's about me, but you'll also get benefits from it. You'll be able to take me in every way that you take advantage over a woman and maybe you can see it as a goal?"

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Okay, I was ashamed afterwards. I should be that boyfriend as was really behind Harry's choice and I should understand that I can't affect him, because he had already made a choice. I walked along the streets at random. I tried instead to target myself for where we're going in life. Harry would totally be a woman and maybe I should be happy about that. Less explanations to the outside world, because no one then wouldn't notice that he was a man.