I'm a Payne // n.h.

Chapter 9

Chapter 9

Alyssa's POV

My legs were wrapped around his waist and I couldn't help but feel like this was the happiest moment of my life. He asked me to be his girlfriend and all of my doubts about him were set aside.

"First couple picture?" Niall asked smirking. He pulled out his black iPhone and snapped us with the sunset behind us, it was the perfect picture. We walked back hand in hand , both smiling like crazy.

"Keep your snogging to a minimum, please." Louis sassed. "Oh, and please no baby making in the house while we're around." I felt my cheeks heat up and Niall's did the same.

"Shush." I whined, leaving a smirk on Louis's face. Niall wrapped his arms around my stomach, holding me closer to him.

"Oh and how do you plan coming out to the press about your relationship? People are going to have a hayday." Liam mused sitting right across us. I bit on my thumb nail nervously. I forgot all about telling the fans. Would they accept me? Or would they hate me. I'm an Angel now, they'll probably say Niall's only dating me because of my looks, he really doesn't like me. I can't handle that kind of stuff, I mean I'm already really nervous and insecure about this whole Angel thing, and millions of jealous, angry teenage girls won't help that. I was trying to make my own image, not just be Liam Payne's sister. Now I was Niall Horan's girlfriend. Another title, I didn't even think about that. The main reason I took the job was because I wanted to come out of my shell and become Alyssa Payne: Victoria's Secret Angel, not Alyssa Payne: Liam's Sister. I was digging myself deeper, and I didn't want to do that, I couldn't do that being with Niall. I can't be with him. And just like that, our relationship was going to be over. It probably sounded selfish, but I wanted what was best for myself. My mind was getting the best of me.

"I don't know." I said in a monotone voice. I suddenly felt uncomfortable in his arms, knowing that I had to break up with him, right after he asked me out. I couldn't help but feel it wasn't right, I'd had moments with him. But this was what was best for me. "Can we head back? I'm not feeling so well."

"Sure, of course. Do you want to stop and get anything from an convince shop to help you?" Niall immediately asked, guilt growing in my stomach.

"No. Just an upset stomach. No biggie." I quietly replied packing all my stuff up, slipping my maxi dress back on. My legs quickly guided me to the car, pulling Liam next to me. I stole a quick glance to Niall, who looked semi confused and hurt at the same time. I quickly slipped my sunglasses back on, pretending to fall asleep on Liam.

When we got home, I knew I had to do it soon, the guilt was tearing inside me. "Hey Niall, do you want to take a walk outside with me?"

"But you probably should go to bed since you don't feel well." Gosh, this kid was making it hard.

"Just come on." I led him outside the patio, to a little path that led through the forest. It was really beautiful at night, the stars were so clear, the weather was perfect. We made our way a small ways down and I dropped the ball. "Niall look. I got here 3 days ago and I'm already in a relationship. I'm moving way too fast-"

"If you think we're moving too fast we can always take a step back and slow down Lyss."

"It's just that Niall. I don't think I can handle being in a relationship with you. I just came back for God's sake!" Tears were threatening to spill at any moment. "I think it will ruin you and I's relationship with Liam." Lie.

"But I asked him if it was okay to ask you out Lyss! I had his permission! He's okay with it!"

"Still, I just don't think it's gonna work out Niall. I should have said no when you asked." Another lie. I stole a glance at his face, tears were spilling from his eyes, reflecting off the light from the moon. "Goodbye Niall." I walked away from him. I turned around and gave him one more look, tears now spilling from my eyes. Hurt and sadness was apparent on his face, along with the tears running down his cheeks. A wave of guilt ran over me. I should have said no when he asked me, or not have kissed him. I liked him a lot, but this is what's right for me. 

"Lyss, wait!" Niall called out. I stopped, not looking back. Then continued back to the house. I ran straight up to Liam's room. He saw the tears running down his face, and the expression on his face turned to anger.

"What the hell did Niall do to you?" He sounded pissed.

"Niall did nothing. It was me." The expression on his face softened. "I told him that we were moving too fast, and that I don't think we should be a couple." Liam rubbed my back as I sobbed into his shoulder.

"Sh... It's okay. I'm here. You know I told Niall it was okay for him to ask you out. And by the looks of it earlier today,and yesterday, you liked each other a lot. What happened that made you suddenly want to break up with him?"

"It's just, I think it would ruin you and him's relationship if we ever broke up, and that's not fair to him. And the hate, I don't think I could handle the hate. I mean, look at the headlines when the press finds out Niall Horan dating Victoria's Secret Angel/Liam Payne's sister. That would make me look like a slag. It's all too much, too fast. I really like him, I truly do. It's so hard." 

"You're not a slag. If the fans hate on Niall for dating you, they are not our true fans. And who cares what the press thinks? If you truly like Niall that shouldn't matter. These are bullshit excuses Lyss, and you know it. You're going to really hurt Niall."

He was right, I knew I had hurt him. But it was for the best, I came here to have fun, not fall in love though. It was unexpected, but maybe I made a mistake doing that. It was too late though now, he probably hated my guts. I would too if I was him. "I'm going to bed."

"Bullshit excuses. It wasn't right of you to do that to him. I know you still like him, a lot."

I ran to my bedroom, tears brimming in my eyes, with no one to cry to. I fell asleep to the steady rhythm of my sobs.

Niall's POV

She dumped me. After not even 4 hours after asking me out. I felt broken, depressed, taken down. She walked away from me, tears brimming in her beautiful brown eyes. We're moving too fast she says, that it will ruin Liam's relationship with us. It really hurt me that she wasn't even willing to slow down. It was done, no more Niall and Lyss. I really thought we had something, the passionate kisses we shared, the butterflies I got when she hugged me. It had been three days when I felt it had been a year. I wanted to fix it, but she hated me, why else would she break my heart? I had so much love for her, it literally killed me that she didn't want to even try. But why would she want to date me in the first place? I was the most unattractive out of the boys, it wouldn't surprise me if she went for Zayn or Harry. I was nothing compared to them.

I walked back to the house, all of the boys waiting for me, exept Liam.

"What's wrong Niall?" Zayn sounded concerned. 

"She broke up with me. Said we were moving too fast, and that our relationship would ruin Liam and I's relationship. It's done and over with." I choked back a sob.

"Oh Niall, I'm so sorry."

"Don't be." I snapped back.

"I don't know what was going on, but Liam and her were yelling at each other, Alyssa seemed pretty upset. I think she's sleeping now but-"

"I'm going to bed." 

"Night." 

I walked up the stairs and Liam was standing out on the balcony, watching me. We didn't share anything more than a glance. When I passed Alyssa's bedroom, she was sound asleep. I watched her for a mere couple minutes, admiring how beautiful she was, when I realized Liam was still watching me. I promptly walked to my bedroom, shut the door, and fell asleep.