I'm a Payne // n.h.

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

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*3 1/2 YEARS LATER*

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Leaving London was probably the smartest thing I ever did. I know I wouldn't have been able to raise a child with 5 guys in one house. Every day I think about what it would be like if Niall and I were still together and were together during the pregnacy. We wouldn't have been stable with the whole boy band traveling and tour business. I want to be stable, at home. But I always push them off and think about Carter. He was born June 23, a day early. He looks identical to Niall when he was a kid, it's almost scary. He got his hair and eyes, and he got my face structure. Since I left London, Liam took the news really bad at first and I feared he would have told Niall, but thank God he didn't. My mother and father were disappointed that I was not 'being safe and that I got pregnant at such a young age, but through everything they were there for me, and Liam was even there to see the birth. I haven't spoke to Zayn since that day in the airport, Niall too. I stepped down from being an Angel, and I found work as being a high-fashion model. I use a stage name for that, but my name is still public knowledge. I cut my hair and dyed it blonde for a more 'mom' look and I've been called a MILF numerous times, it's such an awkward compliment to respond to say the least. I haven't been on a single date since Niall, and I don't plan on dating until Carter is grown up. I don't want him to have numerous guys that he thinks is his dad, I never wanted to be that type of person. I never once took off the necklace Niall gave me for my birthday, or the bracelet Zayn gave me, but I never wore the bracelet from all of them. It made me miss them so much, and I couldn't even bear to remember the memories that they left. But I did take off Niall's charm and put it on a necklace for Carter, so he always had a part of his dad with him.

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I pushed my shoulder length behind my ear and looked back down at my 3 year old son. { http://www.j-14.com/Sound-Off-Miley-Cyrus-Blonde-Hair-Color.jpg } "Carter we can do that later, mommy's gotta finish her work than we can play for the rest of the night." I tried to reason with him, before he threw a temper tantrum, like usual.

"But Mommy! I wanna play now!" He whined back at me, and I know I wasn't going to get through to him anytime soon. I picked him up and set him on my lap while I continued making my schedule for the week. I wasn't that busy of a person, I tried to keep my schedule clear to spend time with Carter so he wasn't being raised by his daycare lady. My week was mainly press, a couple photo shoots, and some time in the office to write my weekly advice column. My thoughts became scattered as my iPhone started ringing from and unknown location.

"Mommy I got it! Hewwo?" Carter yelled from the kitchen of our loft. "Hi Uncle Wiam!"

"Carter give Mommy the phone!" I reached my hand out in front of him and he reluctantly handed the phone over after telling Liam how he got a new train to play with.

"Hey Liam sorry about that." I apologized and gave Carter a snack of cheerios.

"It's okay. I just wanted to invite you over to my place because I have a month holiday and I wanted to invite you and Carter over to stay with us! I never get to see him, and I want to spend as much time with him as I can and you too Lyss." He laughed off his quick save and I would have punched him in the arm if I was talking to him in person. The thought pondered in my mind, I don't really have anything important besides my column, which I could email. So why not?

"You know what? Why not. I'll come in a week." I smiled through the phone and I stole a glance at Carter, who was still happily enjoying Spongebob and his cheerios. I could hear Liam smile through the phone even before he spoke.