Samantha's coward

chapter 5

It has been a while since judge entered into jamal's office anyway I need to give him this document to sign.
     I got up from my desk and walked to his office and when I got in front of the door i knocked twice both there was no respond all I could hear was laughter so i let myself in and I saw my Jamal laughing on the floor with judge and I don't know why but it seemed as if my heart was beating faster than normal.i was so happy to see my Jamal laughing wholeheartedly because the Jamal I knew presently barely laughs but the old Jamal who left me laughs everyday.

      I had to speak cause non of then had noticed me because they were too engrossed laughing
     "Excuse me sir" I said
   It was as if Jamal was electrocuted ,he jerked up faster than normal and straightened his tuxedo
    "Yes Sandra,how can I help you" he asked walking back to his sit while judge was standing up
       "Sir you need to sign this document"
    "And which document is that"he asked
     "It is the document containing the Canada project"
     "Ok "he said and collected the document
      I was about to take my leave when judge called my name
    "Sandra dear"
  "Yes Mr.....i mean judge "
   He smirked before saying" how old are you"
  I looked from him to Jamal hoping for him to say something but it is as if am alone in this so I had to answer
   "I am 25 years old"I said
I didn't even wait for him to reply i just walked out of the office.

Jamal's office
"She said 25years old"judge said
"Yes I heard"
"That is be the age of your ex-girlfriend "
"She wasn't my ex"i whisper yelled
"It okay man calm down but I don't understand  you"
I remained quite because I don't want to remember her
   But the jerk I had as a friend didn't keep quite.
    "Jamal you told me that she left you because she probably thought you had abandoned her "
I couldn't keep quite again I needed to talk to someone
"Judge I am going to tell you again because I know you will keep on pestering me if I don't "
"Right that is a brilliant idea because the time you told me about your ex-girlfriend you didn't tell me in details"
"Ok here it goes ,Sami told me she was pregnant for me but I was young and immature so i turned my back on her and walked out but she probably thought I left her but the truth was that I really needed to clear my mind and not only that I was afraid mom would be mad if she come to know about it so I booked the next possible flight to California. Over there Sami sent me various message but I didn't reply she also call alit but I also ignored her but after a week she stopped calling or texting me which was obviously like her."
  Remembering the love of my life i smiled and continued telling judge my story."When she stopped calling or texting me for over a week I became worried I paid some men to investigate her and report everything about her which they did.they told me about the hospital she goes to ,about her mom they even sent me photos while me the greatest coward cried myself to bed everyday holding her photos .After a while they stopped sending photos or telling anything about her I got worried obviously not only that the worst part was that they didn't even come around anymore,I tried there contacts so many times but it never went through ,I concluded that she was probably dead .i was so devastated that i became an alcoholic and I slept with everyone who looked a little like her till today I don't know the reason those men stopped reporting to me.The last I heard about her was that her mom died from cancer."I stopped and looked at judge's face but i instantly looked down because I don't want people to feel pity for me cause I was the cause of my own problem.
    Till today I keep on wondering and asking myself why,why didn't I stay by her side ,why didn't I go to her when I heard news that her mom died,why did I turn my back on her and my unborn baby and the greatest question I have been asking myself is "why was i  a coward back then and is she really dead or was she alive somewhere is our baby with or did she give our baby to someone or did she die alongside our baby".i didn't even realised that I was already crying .

What do think about Jamal?is he really regreting.what of the men he paid to spy on Sami why did they stop reporting. Do you think it has something to do with his mom.please guys vote,comment and share