Samantha's coward

Chapter 23

"Sami  please don't cry "he said coming close to touch me
Don't you dare touch me Jamal Leon
Sami I wasn't ready to face my mum and tell her
And tell her you got a clearners daughter pregnant right I snapped
Yes sami but not only that I also wasn't ready to be a father and all that
"You weren't ready Jamal are you listening to yourself, what of me did you think I was ready to be a mother " I yelled
"No but... "
'But what Jamal I always warned you to use a condom but you never listened until I got pregnant and once you were informed you vanished into thin air"
"No I didn't I went to clear my head in California "
"And you didn't think of me, you didn't care how my mum would react when I tell her I was impregnated by you, you didn't care about the unborn child, you didn't even care about me and here you are after so many years telling me you never left me but went to clear your head does that even sound reasonable to you Jamal "
"N...o.. no "he stammered
"Do you even know what I went through i lost my mum the same day I lost my baby"
"Please can you tell me how you lost our baby "
"Oh so now you care now its our baby Jamal"
"Am sorry"
"Sorry sorry,  I yelled hitting his chest "how would you saying sorry bring back my baby oh sorry our baby coward "I exhaled trying to calm myself "I was hit by a car i was so deep into thought cause I just left the hospital where I was told my mum died. Jamal my mum died all because of me"
"No sami it wasn't because of you baby "
"Don't you dear baby me coward,  it
was all because of me, because I didn't heed to her advice, because I feel in love with you. I had to stop school Jamal all because of you "
"Am sorry sami I always kept tabs on you, I was even there when your mum was buried but I was so much of a coward that I looked at you from afar"
"So you knew when I lost the baby you bastard" I slapped him
"No... no of course not I didn't the guys I paid to kept tabs on you stopped reporting right after your mum died" he said tears falling from his eyes
"I hate you I so hate you Jamal Leon"
"Am sorry sami you have every right to be angry at me but I will keep on saying I am sorry,  since I left you I haven't been able to fall in love sami you where my only love"
"Don't you call me that you coward don't you dear "
"Sami I love you '
"You love me then why didn't you get someone to find me am sure you could have done that since you are all grown up now and also owns a company Mr Jamal" I said smirking
"I was just afraid of what I would find out "
"You where afraid as always coward"
"Am sorry sami i was a very big coward and I have been regretting it all my life sami"
"You have been regretting it really "
"Yes I swear it sami"
"Then what about your sweet Rosario"
"Rosario means nothing to me sami,  she just looks a little bit like you that's why I was with her sami. You've got to believe me sami"
"Believe you why would I ever believe you again jamal"
"Sami I would spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you sami"
"Jamal I am so drained right now and confused, I need to take in every thing you have said am tired of talking I need to lie down"
"But sami..."
"But sami nothing ok "I yelled I was really tired due to all the crying and yelling and I needed to calm down and take in all the thing jamal just said
"Okay rest "he said calmly
I looked around one last time before I got into bed
  

Am so sorry for the delay but am back get ready for my new novel titled "BOUGHT BY HIM" hope you enjoy it