Samantha's coward

chapter 19

Samis pov
Yesterday was so stressful,I had to make sure everything was ready for today's trip.i left office very late and surprisingly it seemed as if my boss was also busy because immediately i got up to leave for work he came out off his office and decided to give me a ride .i didn't know what to say because I was so tired so I accepted and he drove me home although we didn't say a word to each other.you know it kind of seemed weird my boss giving me a ride home not just any boss but Jamal. Anyway when we got to my apartment I simply told him a thank you and good night before hurriedly unlocking my door and getting in.
       And to make things worse when I got in I saw cat sitting down on my cough and smiling at me  mischieviously,How did she even get in I asked myself then I remembered I gave her a spare key and I regretted that immediately because all I needed now was to lie down and I haven't even parked for the trip.
"Who was that"She said
"Nobody"I said sitting on the cough
"Don't tell me nobody cause someone drove you home and that isn't a taxi"
"It is just a friend "I was really tired and I knew that if I tell cat that it was Jamal that drove me home she wouldn'tlet me rest
"Come on Sami i know too well that wasn't a friend "
"Okay that was Jamal,we closed late at work and he decided to give me a ride home nothing else"
"Jamal gave you a ride home "She said smirking
"Yes that's what I just said and why the hell are you smirking"
"Nothing,but it seemed as if I have really missed a lot for your Jamal to bring you home"
"Firstly he is not my jamal and nothing really happened"
"Okay if you say so.anyway what happened yesterday"
"Yesterday "
"Yes yesterday,you told me this morning that you got things to tell me "
"Oh yes jamal --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------"
  "So you mean jamals mom said all that "
"Yes she did"
"I feel like pulling her hair really tight and asking her to knee down and apologise to both you and jamal because come to think of it she is the architect of both you and jamals problem.Everything was her doing right from high school.And she is even trying to control a full grown man please tell me who does that,for God's sake this is the 21st  century"
"But to be frank with you I am kind confused "
"And why are you confused"
"Jamal defended me but he did nothing back then and I can't stop asking myself why,why didn't he defend me back then"
"Sami I have been your friend both in bad times and good times so I am gonna ask you a question and I hope you answer me truthfully "
"And what is the question "
"Firstly what do you feel for Jamal recently and is that the only question you would like to ask about Jamal right now"
"I don't understand  your question  what do you mean by is that the only question you would like to ask about Jamal right now"
"Sami you asked me why didn't Jamal defend you back then and I think I have an answer to that but is that really all you want to know cause it seems as if I am putting the pieces of this puzzle together "
" I don't know what I am feeling right now for Jamal but I have a lot of things I would like to ask him things like why didn't he defend me back then,why couldn't he stand by my side if he truly loved me , why didn't he stay by my side when I told him I was pregnant,why the hell did he leave like a coward,Now that he is all grown up why didn't he look for me,he found me in the club so why hasn't he come for me,i thought he was asking for a second chance,I truly loved him with all my heart,I gave myself to him but see where it lead me I lost my baby and mom all just because of my love for him."i finished and then realised I was crying although I always do anytime I remember what happened to me
"Sami it okay no need to cry but you really have to talk it out with him maybe I don't have answers to all your questions but you have got to move on and to move on you need to have a clear mind .For the past years you haven't dated while Jamal must have dated .come to think of it have you ever bothered asking yourself why.why haven't you been able to date,I know why it is because you don't feel safe dating a guy because you think they are all gonna be like Jamal,you think that they are gonna abandon you in the middle of your relationship and all this brings us back to Jamal. I am not asking you to date him but I am asking you to talk to him and hear him out so that you will be able to move on.just know what ever happens I will be here for you ,I have got your back Sami you are not alone in this okay"
"Okay"then we both hugged ourself
I don't know how long we remained like that but right now I am laughing hard due to a joke cat said not really a joke rather a curse I have never heard before .
"Seriously it is also an insult"
"Of course it is "
"I am serious anyway you didn't tell me about your date "
"Which date"
"The one you where talking about over the phone ,I thought your date was Jamal but I figured he wasn't "
"Oh no I forgot"then I opened my bag took out my phone and saw so many missed calls from an unknown number then I figured out it obviously was Mr Williams so I called and apologise and to my surprise he took it quite well and I told him the reason why I couldn't make it and he then made me promise that we would go out after my trip and after a little talking I hanged up and turned to see cat smiling.
"What again" I asked
"Who was that and what was that about a trip to California"then I had to tell her everything and when I finished I told her to help me pack my bag cause I was so sleepy I barely took my bath,wore my pyjamas and stumbled to bed leaving cat to pack my bag for me that's the advantage of having a girlfriend .

What do you think about this chapter?do you think Sami is probably having feelings for Jamal and what of cat do you think what she told Sami could be the truth.Do you think Sami should talk everything out with Jamal after everything he did to her.please do vote ,comment and share it really means a lot to me thanks and what do you think about the new cover.