Because of you

3.

Jackson

I huddled into the front seat, wrapping myself into my thick down jacket.

Our manager smiled, nodding at me while the members cheered.

"We've missed you hyung" JB shoved them back, preventing them from grabbing me. I nodded gratefully at him, bundling myself up tighter.

"I'm not staying for long. I have a flight tomorrow morning" I mumble in response, feeling a bit too overwhelmed.

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I rushed into my room as we got back, not wanting Jinyoung to feel more awkward than he has to. I flipped through my blankets, looking for my favourite hoodie.

I just feel cold all the time now and needed my hoodie, my specific favourite hoodie. I searched through my cupboard and even under my bed.

I threw myself onto my bed with a sigh, curling into a ball. I settled for one of my pullovers that I have been wearing for the longest time, pulling and tightening the hood.

"Hyung. Do you want to join us for dinner?" Bam asked, knocking on my door.

"I'm not hungry. You all go ahead" I replied, huddling under my blanket. I heard him sigh before walking away.

~

I woke up with a start, checking my surroundings. My head spun as I got up, clutching my bed frame. I've been getting dizzy spells recently, probably from my lack of sleep and appetite.

I peeked out into the hall, slowly exiting my room when I realised the others had gone to bed. I grabbed a slice of bread and a cup of water from the kitchen, munching on it as I walked back to my room.

I stopped in my tracks, hearing some muffled sounds. I walked towards it, realising that it came from Jinyoung's room. I crumbled to the floor, hearing his muffled sobs. Why Jinyoung. Why?

I sat there on the floor, wanting to get up to go to him. But how do I? When it was him who doesn't want us anymore.

I sat outside his room, my heart breaking more and more with each sob. I sat there till his sobs quietened down and stopped. I waited for a little longer, making sure that he had really fallen asleep. I wiped away my own tears that had fallen while hearing him before getting up to peek at him.

Jinyoung was curled up in his bed, a frown marring his face as he slept. His hands were wrapped around my hoodie, gripping it close to him. So that's where my hoodie was.

I sighed, brushing his fringe out of his eyes. It hurts. Seeing him like this.

I leaned down, giving him a soft kiss against his forehead. Take care my love.

He sighed in his sleep, his fingers tightening on my hoodie. I looked around his room, frowning while taking in the mess. He never likes his room this messy. I guess we're both suffering.

I took one of his t shirts from his cupboard, needing at least a part of him with me. I gave him one last look, pressing another kiss to his forehead before leaving.

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I hardly got any sleep that night again. I cleaned my room and packed my room, needing something to do. It wasn't long before I had to leave to catch my flight.

I contemplated, standing outside Jinyoung's door, my pullover in my hands. What if he doesn't want it? I sigh.

"Screw it" I thought, leaving my pullover behind for him. I hung it on his door knob, leaving it  swaying at it hung from the hood. I decided, I don't care what he thinks. I'll fight for us.

My pullover probably "smells a lot like me" like he used to say. I have been bringing it around with me for the past few months anyway. I hoped that it would at least bring him some form of comfort.

Jinyoung... please look after yourself. I threw one last look over my shoulder, staring at his door before leaving for my flight.

I took on more shows in China recently, I'll prove myself there. I'll even prove myself to his parents. I'll fight. For us. For Jinyoung.

A/N: This is so short. Eep. It's Friyay so... not 1, not 2, but 3 updates! Haha. That and my weird 4 thing. Hope you all enjoy reading this!

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