Because of you

6.

Jinyoung

I slowly shifted Jackson to his bed, taking off his shoes as I tilted him to lie down. His eyes were wide open, staring at me like a child, watching my every move, only shifting himself once I urged him to.

The nurse came in again, hooking him up to his IV. I held his other hand, rubbing my thumb over the back of his hand wincing as she inserted the needle. He seemed unaffected though, his unblinking gaze was trained on me the entire time.

I thanked the nurse once she was done and she handed me some medication for Jackson. I waited till she left the room before focusing my attention back on him.

He frowned when I removed my hand from his, staring as I placed his pills in his hand, handing him a cup of water.

"Go on" I urged, lifting his palm to his face. He tilted his head back, swallowing his medication before handing his cup of water back to me. I smiled, ruffling his hair, watching as his eyes soften.

"Sleep Seunnie. Go to sleep" I whisper, pressing a kiss into his forehead. He blinks up at me, his eyes drooping.

"Shirt" he mumbles, suddenly sitting up and reaching for his bag. I bend down to pass it to him, watching as he rummages through it before taking one of my shirts out.

I frowned, watching him. When did he even? I took off the shirt I was wearing, swapping it with the one in his hand.

I threw on the shirt he kept, smelling his scent enveloping me. How long has he been holding on to this? He smiled, hugging my shirt close before closing his eyes again.

"Sleep my love" I cooed, brushing his hair out of his eyes. He sighed, mumbling something under his breath, burying his face in my shirt, his grip tightening on my shirt.

I continued running my hands through his hair, watching as his breathing slowly started to even out. His arms slackening, revealing his face again, his lips slightly parted as he slept.

I untangled my hand from his hair, placing my hand in my lap as the other members came back in. They sighed collectively, standing around Jackson's bed as we watched him sleep.

"Thank you Jinyoung. We know how busy you are but we were so worried" JB whispered, slumping against Youngjae.

"I've never seen him like this before. It scared me" Yugyeom mutters, wrapping his arms around me.

I kept quiet, thinking about the mess we two became. I think I broke him. Fuck. We can't go on like this. We're crumbling apart, dying without each other.

The rest of Got7 lingered around, watching Jackson and squeezing my shoulder, watching us before heading back to the dorm.

I couldn't take how he kept frowning in his sleep, my heart chipping off with each frown. I decided then, I have to tell him. I don't know how he would take it but I have to.

I used my fingers to straighten out his frown, I cupped his face rubbing my thumb over his eye bags lightly. He sighed in his sleep, leaning into my touch.

I smiled softly at that, I hope he forgives me. I miss him so much.

I slipped my hand into his, resting my head against my forearm, leaning by the side of his bed. I closed my eyes, facing him as I tried to get some sleep.

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I woke up before he did, checking on him. I stroked his head, laying a kiss against his forehead before going to the nurses' station to get some water and choosing some food for him.

I settled into the seat next to his bed again, scanning over him as he slept. His eye bags were better but still there, dark purple stains still visible around his eyes. His veins stood out against his forearms, his hands still clinging onto my shirt, hugging it to his chest.