Because of you

33.

Jackson

Jinyoung and I stared at each other that night, unable to sleep. He felt too far away, despite our interlinked hands, both of us stretching across the beds.

"It feels weird. Come and lie with me. Please" he whispers, opening his arms to me.

I crawled over, leaning on my hands as I hovered over him.

"Your hand" Jinyoung frowned, pressing against my chest.

"I'm alright. Give me this. I almost lost you" I muttered, bending forward.

I pressed a kiss to his lips, pouring all my love into that kiss. Jinyoung moaned as I slipped my tongue into his mouth, his hand gripping the front of my gown, tugging me toward him instead.

He tasted so sweet that I felt lightheaded, forgetting to breathe, gasping as I broke our kiss. I placed another kiss against his forehead before laying chest down next to him.

"I'm alright love" I smiled, watching as he fussed over me, checking my bandages after.

My heart ached, looking at him. He looked so sexily mussed up after the kiss, his cheeks still flushed and his lips slightly swollen. My hot mess. If only he wasn't in a hospital gown...

"I'm sorry love. I should have protected you better" I sighed, taking in a deep breath.

He shook his head, still checking on my back when I wrapped my arm around his waist, tugging him back into my view.

"It hurts. Seeing you like this. Knowing that it's my fault" I mumbled, staring into his eyes.

"Seunnie... it's not your fault. It's her fault" he sighs, running his hand through my hair, comforting me.

"Still sucks. It doesn't change the fact that I couldn't protect you. Again" I mumble, closing my eyes.

"I'm a grown man darling. And... honestly, I kind of asked for it when I irked her. I was so angry. Seeing her in front of me just made me so mad, I couldn't control my anger then. It just reminded me that she hurt you before that I vented it on her" Jinyoung explains, his hand stilling while tangled in my hair.

I looked up at him as he explained, his tone agitated, his eyes flashing with anger.

"The fact that she took you away from me and tortured you before. She wasn't even caught then and you even have the scars from it still" Jinyoung sighed, cupping my face.

"And it was for days darling. You don't know how lost I was without you and finding you in that state. I... I was so angry. And she said she loved you? How was that loving you?" he ranted, frowning.

I bit back my grin, watching him. Was it bad that I enjoyed watching how agitated he got because of me?

"I didn't realise how crazy she is. She actually quoted our lyrics when I asked her what you promised her. I don't even..." he trailed off, shaking his head.

I pushed myself to sit up while scooping Jinyoung up in my arms, wary of his shoulder. I held him tighter to me, feeling his body tremble in my arms. I pressed a kiss to his forehead, trying to calm him down.

"I'm here. She's gone" I mumble. I rock us until Jinyoung relaxed, his face hidden in my neck as he breathed me in. He wrapped his arms around my neck, holding me tight to him before speaking up.

"It seems like we're always in the hospital" he mutters, his breath fanning against my collarbone.

"Oddly enough. We always end up here" I sighed, rubbing the nape of his neck.