i was still upset with phil.
for not helping me.
and taking the "risk" without me less than 60 minutes after i begged and cried for him to help me.
with no remorse.
did he know i could see him doing it?
did he do it on purpose to upset me more?
why is he acting like he's in charge of me?
because he's fucking not.
phil lester is not in charge of me.
no one is.
i got away from the green eyes. all by my self.
my mums dead i'm gay and i have a razor blade in my hand.
and i'm still here.
that means i'm strong right?
that's what christian would say.
should i tell him about my new coping method?
he might stop me. or tell petal. or laugh at me.
i won't yet. it's my secret.
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Fanfictionsuch a shit story, i was young. not going to be finished. somewhat based on my life so please don't be mean🥺🤡 i hope that i'm the reason that u can't sleep i hope that ur whole life sucks without me the truth is i've been out for days thinking abo...
