Shansel...love?

anger

No matter how much I try to get Ansel off my mind...I just can't. I miss him so much, his smile, laugh, eyes, warmth, just him in general.

But, even though I miss him, I'm still angry at him for leaving me. I don't know how to take care of twin girls, how could he leave me when I need him the most. I'm so insecure and worried...so pathetic.

I would do anything to hear his voice, and it's not like I haven't tried to call! He won't answer...it's only been a week and I'm already this bad, how am I going to make it four months?

I heard one of the girls crying and went into the living room where the girls were. Little McKenna...she was a daddy's girl and was throwing a fit without him here, and I don't blame her, though it's not like Bella don't miss him to...she just didn't showing, and that's what im trying to do...not show it.

I fed Mckenna and snuggled her, then laid her in bed...she was making me tired though...she cried 24/7.

I heard the phone rang and practically ran to it. I always thought it was Ansel, like I said...I'm pathetic.

though it was just my mom. I talked to her and stuff then hung up depressed.

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I woke up to my cell phone going off, I looked at the time..who would call me at 4 in the morning?

"Hello?"

"Hey baby.."

"Ansel?" I sat up.

"why the hell haven't you answered my calls!?"

"I've been very tired and busy, I'm sorry.."

"it's okay...I just miss you so much."

"I miss you too. how are the girls?"

"Good...McKenna misses you like crazy though."

"I miss them too. are you angry at me?"

I thought for a moment..."Well kind of..."

I heard talking in the background.

"Hey, I have to go..." I sighed as a tear fell out of my eye.

"I love you.." I hung up the phone and started crying hard.

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