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"You really wanted to leave us that day, right hyung?" Jungkook says
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Their little maknae has grown up. The little maknae who used to cry in Jin's arms because he missed his family. The little maknae who almost give up being a singer because he can't take it anymore. The little maknae who always admired his hyungs. The little maknae who loves his hyungs more than anything. Through ups and downs he passed with his hyungs.
The journey from a young kid that know nothing about world to a grown up young man. The journey of all of them, a group of young kids keep moving forward although the world is against them. The little maknae has grown up. The little maknae has grown up with the help of all his hyungs.
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They are at the park. It is always the same park. Its like the park is always a place that he goes when something happened.
"Hyung..." Jungkook says softly while eyeing Jin who is lying on the grass with eyes close, calming himself.
"You know Yoongi hyung didn't mean it right?" Jungkook says again.
Jin just keep listening to Jungkook's words without giving him any respond.
"He was so scared that day. Really, really scared. I've never saw him like that"
"I was scared too" Jin replies softly while blinking open his eyes and eyeing the younger.
"It was so dark. I was so scared" Jin says again.
"Yoongi hyung never been the same since that incident, just like you. Both of you changed the most. I miss the old you. I miss the old Yoongi hyung. I miss the old us" Jungkook says sincerely while playing with the grass.
"He-" Jungkook pause, he needs to find the exact word to explain "He restrain himself from doing things that he enjoyed the most. He restrain himself from making music"
"You too hyung. You said you love singing. You said singing is your passion but you-" Jungkook eyes the elder "but you restrain yourself from doing it. Not only that, you restrain yourself from enjoying music"
"The old me is just an act" Jin replies, sharp and short.
"The doctor said you were not fighting for your life" Jungkook states, remembering what the doctor told them at the hospital.
"We did everything we can but, he is not fighting for his life. Now its up to him" the doctor says.
"What do you mean he is not fighting for his life?" Namjoon asks calmly.
"He is giving up" simple and short, that was the sentence that came out from the doctor's mouth
"I'm tired. I'm really tired" Jin replies.
"My passion becomes my burden, everything that I did caused me harm. Breathing caused me harm. Me, breathing did not just caused me harm but also caused all of you harm"
"I didn't cry that day." Jungkook says.
"Why you didn't cry like others?" Jin asks.
"Because I was too scared. I was afraid. I was afraid of losing you" Jungkook says, looking directly into the elder's eyes.
"I feel like if I cry, you will be gone. You will leave me. Crying is a sign to express our emotion. Its an action that our body react to become normal again. I feel like if I cry, you'll know that I'm normal, I'm okay and by that, you will leave me"
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Fanfiction[COMPLETED] A member have to beg to the other members who are the producers of their songs for his voice to be included in their songs. Kim Seokjin have to beg to Min Yoongi and Kim Namjoon for his part. How sad is this? How about one day, Jin compl...
