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"It's going to be fine. Trust me"
He just can't. He can't trust someone's promise again
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Now he knows why the eldest never shows this side of him to Yoongi. To everyone. The eldest looks so small, so weak, so fragile until no one can recognize if it, the Jin they know. Truly different from the Jin they know.
Yoongi wonders, it this the right thing to do? Just be quiet and accompany the eldest. Maybe this is not the nicest decision but he never experience watching the eldest breakdown.
Its his first time seeing the eldest looking so weak.
As he waits for the elder to finish sobbing and notice his presence, he tries. He really tries to speak something to the elder but Yoongi just seem to not find any suitable words and makes any warm sentences towards the elder.
He just can't find the right words to console the elder. He is afraid that his words will just make the situation become worse. He is afraid that he will make Jin feel worse. He is afraid that the elder will break more than he already did.
After seeing the elder's fall, now Yoongi knows and realizes how hard to console someone when they went through their own fall.
He truly admires and respects Jin for all the elder did towards them. He is thankful that there is someone like Jin in their group. The one that console all the members without making any mistakes.
The one that always find the right words, the right sentences, the right expression, the right action to console them all. He is thankful. Now that he realize how hard the elder's responsibility, he is guilty but he is thankful towards the elder. Yoongi can't seem to imagine the group without Jin as their eldest brother, he can't imagine the group never debuted with Jin in the group.
Maybe he is selfish for feeling thankful because of the elder's responsibility but he is just thankful towards Jin.
He just love the presence of Jin so much, he just love his hyung so much and nothing can change that. Yoongi is starring deep on the floor with the sound of Jin's sobbing accompany them. In Yoongi's mind, he wants to say something but he just didn't. He can't. It is too hard for him to say something.
It is too hard for him to console the elder. He is just afraid to say something so there he is, still sitting on the floor besides Jin, with his back leaning on the Jin's bed frame.
The truth is, Jin knows the presence of Yoongi in the room, besides him but Jin just didn't stop sobbing, he just can't stop. Maybe the burden he's holding on his shoulders was too big, too hard and too long.
Maybe that is the reason he is crying right now. He wanted to stop crying but he can't. Jin didn't want to worry Yoongi but he just can't stop crying. He's holding the burden for too long now and he just can't calm down right now. This is the life that he chose.
He needs to live his life forward with the burden but how can he lives his life without feeling guilty?
There is no place for him in this group in the first place but he makes himself one. He makes himself a place in this group by stepping on someone's dream, someone's passion.
And that 'someone' is his own bestfriend. How can he lives his life forward happily? He just can't. Jin didn't know how long he's been crying now with Yoongi besides him but he's sure that he's been crying for too long since he started to feel tired. Still with his head on his knees, he hears the younger tries to say something, he hears Yoongi's voice.
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Love and Appreciate || Jin
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