My love belongs to you only

Insecurity

THE NEXT DAY

Takashi's POV:

ding dong

Is this Haydie?! Ah... probably not after what happened yesterday... why didn't I control myself?! Fuck fever shutting my brain off! I just couldn't restrain! Giving my hopes up, I drag myself to the door and open it slowly.

"H-hi... Takashi. I came."

"Haydie! Come in, come in!"

I open the door wide instantly and let her in. So she really came... I'm relieved! I thought I fucked up everything...

She gets out of her shoes and puts her schoolbag onto the floor.

"Would you like some tea?"

"Yeah."

"Black?"

"Yeah."

She seems totally out of space... shit. Now I get an ever badder feeling.

"Haydie... about yesterday. I...sorry, I wasn't able to control myself. I couldn't restrain. I'm truly sorry for-"

"Takashi."

"Yes?"

"Just shut your mouth," she says and comes closer to me pulling me into a hug. Being surprised, I first don't do anything but soon enough I hesitantly hug her back.

"I think I understood what Tomo wanted to say."

I knew it... Tomo you fucktard! My face becomes an angry one until Haydie lifts her head up and looks at me.

"Please... eh, please...," she whispers as her blushing becomes more and more obvisious. What does she want? I have the feeling she wants me to kiss her... but I could be totally wrong. Should I do it though? Haydie keeps looking at me, still very red from blushing while her grip on my shoulders becomes more firm.

"Please..."

Ok. Just do it, Takashi. I don't understand the situation but just kiss her! I can't restrain anymore! I kiss Haydie passionately and sense her eyes getting big but soon closes them. So she is ok with it, huh... I'm glad! I can die happy now! Being about to end the kiss, her grip on my shoulders strenghtens even more and she pulls me back to her, bringing our lips together one more time. Now I am the one with big eyes. Does this mean... Tomo was right about her having feelings for me? Tomo, I take back my words. You are an angel.

I touch her cheeks and deepen the kiss while bringing my body closer to her's. I can feel her breathing becoming quicker and quicker. Gosh, I want more. After stroking her cheeks, I pull my arms around her and hug her deeply, not ending the kiss and luckily she seems to like it. Seriously, I'm the happiest person right now! It feels like an eternity until we end the kiss.

"Thank you..."

"Don't say thanks, Haydie," I smile shyly at her. What exactly does she thanks me for, though?

"I will get your tea now."

She nods and goes to the living room. I prepare two cups of tea and go to Haydie.

"By the way, how are you feeling, Haydie? Since I-"

"Good! I don't feel... any signs of a fever," she responds with a blush and sips at the tea.

"That's surprising but I'm glad."

I smile at her out of relief and want to pat her, but I shouldn't go too far and too fast I guess. I should go with the time and how it develops. I mean... I don't even know if she loves me truly or not. Thinking about this makes me sad and I look down what Haydie seems to notice right away.