Losing You

The Hospital

I finished my food and decided to wash the dishes. I accidentally bent my arm revealing freshly torn open cuts. I ran to get a towel. I'm not that person anymore. I can't be. I need to move on. I press the towel against the cuts and sit on the ground. I start to close my eyes and drift off...

F/N POV

I just started to pull up to the house when I notice that it was loud and obnoxious, she plays that damn metal all the time. She had a bag for quiet spaces. Not my thing. I walk into the house and turn off the music. Then I hear the water running.

"Y/N?"

Silence. That's all I hear from out of the kitchen. I rush over, only to find her lying on the floor with a small pool of blood escaping from her wrists.

Oh y/n...

I rush to pick her up, and take her to my car. I forgot my keys in the door as I came in, so I go back to get those. I ran back and started the car as fast as possible. I spend to the hospital and almost got caught. I rushed her into the E.R. and they took her away from me. I had to wait for what felt like ages.

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Y/n POV

I woke up in the hospital, and noticed I had tubes all around me. Under my nose, in my arm, everywhere.

Suddenly, I remembered what happened. I had been having a great day, when I had to bend my arm in the wrong direction leaving up open cuts to soak my kitchen floor, and then I passed out. I though about the events of earlier... If I hadn't have been so nieve, maybe I wouldn't have ended up here.

I sat up and looked for my things. My phone was sitting on the table next to me so I picked it up. I saw something on Twitter.

Hey guys, something happened with someone in the BVBArmy, so today I'm going to visit her. We're close to her hometown today, and we don't have any shows for the next week. Keep you updated.

I thought to myself, and sighed. The room was very quiet until a nurse came in and asked me if I was ready for any visitors. I quickly nodded, wanting to see my friend.

I saw her walk in, a sad smile on her face. She quickly padded over to me, and said, "you might be the luckiest person alive right now." I looked at her questioningly. "What?" I was confused. "I'm in a hospital, because I nearly bled to death. I'm lucky?" She tilted her head and her smile faded.

"Y/n, what you did wasn't very smart, but I understand. You don't feel lucky. But you will. Close your eyes and stick your hands out. Flat."

I looked at her skeptically, thinking she was going to trick me. I felt two small pieces of paper in my hands.

"Open."

I opened my eyes and read the small paper. It said, "BLACK VEIL BRIDES, SEAT 32 AND 33, ROW 1. MARCH 12 2018"

I silently screamed. I started to cry. "Don't cry yet, the fun has just begun!" I hear a deep but familiar voice say. I turned my head towards the door to see Andy Biersack leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. My jaw dropped.

"How long have you been standing there?"
"Wow, no hello? Very formal."
"Hi. How long have you been standing there?"
He chuckles. "About 5 minutes. Your friend f/n here tagged me and the rest of the band in a pic of you in the hospital bed. She also told me what happened after I asked why she tagged me in it. After that, well I guess you know the rest."

I looked at him with awe. I can't believe this is actually happening. Andy Biersack, the man of my dreams, my savior, inspiration. Standing right here in front of me.

"Are you just gonna stand there or are you going to give me a hug?" He laughed and walked over to hug me. It felt nice being in this 6’3” man's embrace. He tried to pull away but I pulled him back in. "Nope. Stay." We both laughed and hugged for a few more minutes. After we stopped hugging, he looked at me.

"Aren't you the girl that texted me yesterday on Twitter about your birthday? And how the show comes to your convenience?" He eyes me.
"Yea That was me. I just never thought that you'd be here now... I mean, this is like living a dream. Wait... Did you say yesterday?"
"Um, yeah. He said yesterday. You were asleep the whole day and night." F/n informs me.
"Great. So it's the 2nd now? What happened to giving me my birthday present on the 10th? I mean, not that I care, I love it and would've taken it any day before, but why now?"
"I just figured it would make your day special. Happy early birthday."
"Thank you both. Without you, Andy, I probably would've been dead a long time ago. And thank you f/n for making it home in time so I could enjoy this moment."

Andy looked at me. "Y/n, I don't know why you did what you did, but it hurts me to see you like this. I'm glad our music helps you get out of situations like these, but never feel like hurting yourself is a good way to take the anger and pain out. I think what you've been doing, writing music, is a good stress reliever, and you should do it more often. By the way, could you sing that song you said you were writing? I mean you don't have to bu-"

"No it's okay. I'll sing it. Here goes nothing."

I looked to the ceiling, and took a deep breath, and closed my eyes.

"Life has a funny way of taking its toll,
Dark things our world will never know,
Sit down take the time to figure it out,
The time has gone it came crashing down.

If this is what I've made my life,
Cross my heart and hope to die,
That I would never fall in love,
Or swear I'll try.
I looked into his eyes,
Swear to God I saw the light,
I'm too afraid to love,
I don't wanna die.

Once upon a time I thought I found someone,
But he left 'fore it was all said and done,
In my arms but he fell from my grasp,
Now we're on the ground his time has come and past.

If this is what I've made my life,
Cross my heart and hope to die,
That I would never fall in love,
Or swear I'll try.
I looked into his eyes,
Swear to God I saw the light,
I'm too afraid to love,
I don't wanna die.

If this is what I've made my life,
Cross my heart and hope to die,
That I would never fall in love,
Or swear I'll try.
I looked into his eyes,
Swear to God I saw the light,
I'm too afraid to love,
I don't wanna die.

I'm too afraid to love...
Don't want him, to die..."

I looked back down and stared at my feet, feeling a single tear slide down my face. I looked at Andy. He had a small smile on his face and tears brimming in his eyes. He looked back and said "Wow. I was right. You're great. I felt the emotional grasp in that song. It was very strong, and you have the perfect voice for it.

I looked back at him and smiled. "Um... Thanks..." I mentally slapped myself because of my social awkwardness.

My friend looked at me with awe. "How come you haven't shown me this?"

"Sorry, I'm just nervous, but Andy just has... This aura that lets me feel confident." She looked at me. "And I don't?" I smirked. "Not really no." She smiled knowing I was messing with her but she still smacked the back of my head. "Hey don't get mad at me! You didn't ask fucker." She laughed. "You've got a point."

I looked back over to Andy who was laughing hysterically at the two of us fighting. He had his head back so I smacked his leg. "Owch! What was that for?" He asked, still smiling like a fool.
"You know perfectly well what that was for." I laughed.

I honestly hope this isn't a dream. It feels like one though. Meeting my favorite person, and immediately clicking, becoming his friend. I don't know. Maybe this is all just a dream, and when I'll wake up, It'll all be gone. If so, I never want to wake up.
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