Fearing Feelings (Sequel to FF)

Nightmares Sequal to FF

"Storm Storm go away come again another day." I sang looking out my window .It's been raining three days in a row since a week ago when my mother passed .

I think of the rain as all the tears I want to shed . Don't get me wrong I've cried ..I've cried alot . I cried because our relationship was messed up . I didn't run after her at the parking lot on my birthday . We had both good and bad times and that's normal but I wish I could have talked to her .

Her funeral was beautiful . Dozens of white roses surrounded her coffin . I cried on Bishop's shoulder staring at her coffin .I blocked out all the sounds surrounding me .It was I was deft and going blind with my watery eyes .Everything happened so fast .

"India "Bishop shook me as my sight came back to me . I stared at him as I heard the chaos next to me I jumped up next to Cali who's face filled with fear looking at Brooke . Her water had broke .

"We need to get her to the hospital !" Cali cried out .

Cali rushed Brooke to the hospital . She gave birth to a seven pound and nice ounce baby boy named Jarred .He had the tan compilation from Brooke's side . His eyes were the most beautiful green eyes ever . He was happy as ever looking around at all of us like he'd been waiting on this day .

Two days after Brooke gave birth we cremated my mom .Cali and Bishop came with me to throw her into the ocean. I held on to the vase closing my eyes .dear heavenly father thank you for her time on this earth . Ahem

After I prayed I released her ashes into the sea watching her blow away . I cried watching her ashes slowly land in the oceans . A pair of arms wrapped around me I didn't care who it was .

I was into the moment as all happy memories flashed through my eyes like the time she pecked on Bishop and I in his car messing up the mood . I had to admit she was a protective mother. I loved her dearly even though she didnt believe me but it was in the past it's time to move on .

After realizing her we went back to the hospital with Brooke . I made sure I had myself together before going inside her room.

"Hey." Brooke smiled as I sat on her bed as she held Jarred in her arms .

I gave her a smile before looking at a sleepy Jarred yawn . Cali walked in giving Brooke a kiss and taking Jarred away .

"You ok?" Brooke laid her hand ontop of mine . It felt like everybody in the room stopped in looked at me .

"I'm good." I lied smiling once again.