Fearing Feelings (Sequel to FF)

Chapter 9

Terrance

"Terrance take this thing off ." Nina said getting frustrated when almost tripping .

"We're almost here . "I held her hand directing her infront of our new home .

"Hurry up ." She whined .

"Alright . We're here ." I let her hands go so she could untie her blindfold .

"Finally ." She quickly yanked the blindfold off looking at the house .

"Wow ." She looked at it's huge size . 'House in the MM' "You like ?" I questioned eager to hear a response .

"Yea it's nice." She stared at the home . My gut told me she didn't like it .

"What's wrong with it ?" I frowned .

"it just feels like a family home ."

"Don't you want a family with me ."

"of course I'll give you a baby."

I wasn't to convinced by her words . She barely even looked at me . I watched her climb the stairs ,going into the house to check it out.

I sighed placing my hands in my pockets ,messing around with the little box inside .

Getting back to our old home .Nina left going to the studio ,leaving me alone . I walked around the house looking at the pictures of Nina and I . It didn't feel the same anymore . We wanted different things . I seriously doubted Nina wanted kids. I don't think she even wants to get married .

Falling onto the couch . I pull out the engagement ring I planned on giving her today . Eyeing it I knew she would love it . She probably would have said yes and pushed the wedding back as long as she could .

Slamming the box shut I placed the ring back into my pocket . I had a lot of things to think over . We had been together three years I would think it was time to make the next move .

Next day

Taking Nina out to dinner to her favorite restaurant she acted as everything was good .

She tried to convince me to choose a better home that would fit us . I wasn't sure what to say to her .

"Babe why aren't you talking to me ." She placed her hand on hip while having her other hand on the counter in our kitchen .I had to admit she looked good tonight . With her hair straightened . She always looked good .

"we need to talk ." I took my focus off her body and onto her face .

"What's wrong ." She walked over to wrapping her arms around my neck . Removing her hands I invited her to take a seat .

"Baby you're scaring me ."

Clearing my throat I began ." Nina I love you soo much ."

"But?"

"We don't want the same things . You dont want to get married or have kids . I want those things . I can't give that up . I want to make you the happiness woman on earth but you only think of yourself . I have needs and goals as well as you . I understand you reaching for your dreams but you can't even consider mine and that's not right ."

"What are you saying ?"Her eyes filled with water .

"That we need to end this ."

"FUCK YOU TERRANCE !" She shot up running upstairs .

I ran up the stairs after her grabbing her arm . She tried pushing me off but I tightened my grip on her arms .

Pushing her against the wall our lips meet as well as our tongues. " I hate you ." She hit my chest .

"i love you too ." I ripped her dress off ,throwing it the ground as she wrapped her legs around me .

Placing her the bed . I slid into her as I got ontop . "Make love to me ." She moaned as I thrusted into her wetness.

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Laying beside each other . The room became quite . We both knew that was our last time .

"I love you Terrance ." Nina wrapped her hand around my chest .

"I love you too ."

India

"I'm coming ! " Bishop yelled going downstairs to get the door .

"India !" Bishop's yelled . I fixed my night gown before going down the stairs .

"Who is it ?" I questioned hitting the last step . As bishop moved aside I saw it was Nina. A sad Nina .

"Oh my gosh are you ok ?" I pulled her into the house . Bishop shut the door behind us .

"Noo Terrance broke up with me ."I was shocked . I never thought Terrance would leave her .

"What happened?" I sat down next to her on the couch . She looked at Bishop . "Ill give you two some privacy ." He left going back upstairs .

As he disappeared she began to let everything out . "He said we didn't want the same thing . He wants marriage and kids and I just want to reach my goals . Who doesn't want to reach their goals . He did ! I want to as well. "She froze. Shaking her head.

"i should have never told him how I felt about the house . It was beautiful . It was a family home not a luxury home to me . I should have just said I loved it . I know that hurt him ."

"Don't blame your self ." I rubbed her back as laid on my shoulder . "I loved him India . "

"Well then whipe your tears and get your man back ."

"He doesn't want me no more ."

"Girl stop your lies . You just have to make changes . If you want him you gotta make scarifies . Marriage is a beautiful thing as well as kids . It's not going to get in the way of your success . Stop thinking that."

"I don't know ."

"Well at least think about it ."

Three weeks later ..

Nina had stayed here for a week . I don't get why she doesn't understand that Terrance still loves her . He even helped get her a nice place. She can't look at him but he's there for her . He's a good man . I check on her as much as I can . She's been real sad she cries a lot . I have to force her to eat .

I hope maybe they can work things out . Tasha has been happy lately . She's always smiling down at her phone .

Bishop and I were going home for the weekend . Cali was making us come for a special event . I had no clue what he was planning but all he said was that he needed our help . So of course we came .

"Hey daddy." I greeted him at the park he wanted us to meet at .

"Hey baby girl ." He kissed my forehead while dapping up Bishop .

"Why you got us out in the freezing cold ?"I said shriving .

"Why you don't have no clothes on ." He said pulling my shirt .

"Well as you know it's been almost six years with Brooke and I think it's time ."

"Daddy you proposing ?" He shook his head smiling . I was so excited I knew Brooke had been wanting to get married .

"You got the ring ?"

"Not yet I have a couple of options . I want you to help me pick one as well as helping set up the engagement .

"Of course !" I screamed smiling .I knew Brooke was going to love my ideas .

"I need it ready by saturday . Call Jane she'll help you ."Cali informed me.