Fearing Feelings (Sequel to FF)

Chapter 12

Terrance in the MM

Game day. . .

Nina

I had my doubts about going to the game . I really didn't want to at first but I had nothing to do on a Sunday and deep down I really wanted to support Terrance . I still loved him a lot . He checks on me via text but I want to see him hell I wanna feel him . I wanted his hugs and wisdom . I sighed. I feel like I fucked up I wanna be with him . What if he's dating already ? What if she's at the game ? My heart sank just thinking of the worse .

I climbed out of bed after reading my clock .It was one o'clock and I had to be ready by four thirty to go with India to the game .

After putting my uggs on I grabbed my purse and keys heading out the door . Driving to India's house I played some Aaliyah .Pulling up to her house I got myself together knocking on the door .

"Wassup Nina ." Bishop smiled opening the door .I was very different when it came to Bishop after showing weakness around him when I cried but Bishop was a good guy he acted as if he never saw it. I respect him for that . I just hope he didn't tell Terrance that's something I didn't need him knowing .

"Hey Nina." Everyone greeted me . I smiled and waved taking a seat on the couch .

"Ok yall were just waiting on.. NINA !" India ran and jumped in my lap . I laughed hugging her .

"I'm glad your coming . You know I don't know a damn thing about sports ." I didn't know much either but I knew enough to know what Terrance was talking about .

"We can get going now ." India hopped off my lap as everyone grabbed their belongings .

Riding it the car with Bishop and India I was low-key jealous of them .They were so cute and all the things he did for her .He loved her seeing happy .They made me miss Terrance more . I grabbed my phone and wished Terrance luck on his game . Scrolling through my messages I saw a text from my mom asking if I was going to spend Thanksgiving with them . It was almost time to make a decision but I wasn't sure if I wanted to show up without Terrance . My family loved him more than they did me .If I showed up alone she would be disappointed and talk about it non-stop .

"Come on Nina." I looked to see my door opened with India standing there waving me on . I hadn't even notice the car stopped . I quickly grabbed my purse getting out.

The weather was getting colder by the day but I was loving it I couldn't wait for it to snow .

"These are some good seats ." India sat down next to me . It was already second third quarter and the redskins were winning . I took my fries and hot chocolate from India .

"Thank you Inde ." Blake sat between us eating his hot dog .He was so cute but also a reminded of Terrance in a way. Everything reminded me of him .

"YESS WE WON ." Fans screamed around us . I was happy Terrance won his first game ."Come on girl .Let's go congratulate him ."

Standing outside the locker room I was pacing back and fourth . I was nervous as hell for some reason . "Nina calm down ." Brooke came beside me rubbing my back .

"What''s wrong ?" I shrugged .I honestly didn't know .

"There's my boy." Snapping my head I seen Terrance coming out in Addis Jogging suit. Cali and Bishop surrounded him smiling . Terrance smiled as well as they talked .

Terrance

Feeling a glaze on it I looked ahead seeing Nina . I was shocked . I didn't think she would but I'm glad she did .

"Go ahead and speak to her." Bishop pushed me ."I got this." I excused myself away from them making my way toward Nina .

"Hey ." I greeted her holding onto my gym bag strap ."Hey." She smiled weakly .

"I didn't think you would come." I said honestly .

"I wanted to support you .You've came along way."

"Thanks I appreciate it."Things became silent .

"Are you hungry ?" She held her hands up ."Don't Terrance." She shook her head walking away. I was confused what did I do ?

Watching her walk away was hard .I didn't know what to do .

After grabbing drinks with the guys and a few teammates I finally made it home . I still stayed at Nina and I's old place . Sometimes I stayed in a hotel to get my mind off her. I didn't want to look for a new place I still had the house to get rid of .

Settling down into bed I watched highlights on my game on ESPN . I hated being alone .The house was too silent . Grabbing my phone I hit Nina's number calling her but I quickly hung up .

Everything was perfect but I messed it up calling her selfish when really I was pushing her for something she wasn't ready for . We were young I should have waited .

DING DONG

Getting out the bed I questioned who could be at my door.Running across the floor I opened the door .

Stareing at each other I couldn't take it I pulled her in . Wrapping my arms around her I slammed the door behind her .

"I'm sorry ." I held her face in the palm of my hands ."No I am I love you . I wanna marry you , have your babies .Terrance I need you . I feel so broken ."

"Nothing feels right without you . I'm never leaving you again ."