Never Giving Up (Sequel to The Broken Generation)

Chapter 22

Kellin's POV

I sighed and stomped up the front steps of Austin and his stupid fiance's house and knocked on the door. I hated being babysat by them and I was ready for the stupid Kellin watch be over. When they had to stop watching me that would be the best day of my life.

"Hey," Alan said opening the door for me. "Uh, Austin's not here right now, there was an emergency at the shop but I'll just be in my room so you don't have to be around me."

I sighed, "Alright."

He gave me a sad look and headed back upstairs. I went to their living room and sat down on the couch. I didn't know what to do to entertain myself, usually Austin was here and he didn't shut up. I pulled my knees to my chest and grabbed the remote and turned on the tv. I really was starting to miss my best friend at this point but even after he apologized, I was still hurt. He really hurt me and I didn't know if I was ready to forgive him yet.

But on the other hand, I needed to get over it, he was my best friend and no matter what he said, that wasn't going to change. He was always there for me and I know he didn't mean it. It was dumb but I was going to have to go talk to him. I sighed and got up from the couch going up to his room. When I got to the door I bit my lip and went to knock but stopped.

Was this a good idea? I sighed and just went for it and knocked on the door.

"Come in," Alan said. I went in and he was sitting up against his headboard with his laptop, "What's up?" He asked looking up at me.

I scratched my head awkwardly. "Wanna talk?"

"Uh yeah," He said shutting his laptop.

"I mean, we don't have to if you don't want to."

"I do, I do."

I gnawed on my lip for a moment. "I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry?"

"I'm a terrible friend," I told him.

"No you're not. I'm the one who told you to kill yourself."

I shrugged. "You're not the first one and you won't be the last to tell me that."

"I should've known better than to ever say that to you. I'm supposed to be your best friend and I shouldn't put you down like that."

"It's fine, I shouldn't have gotten so angry about it," I said.

"You had all the right to be angry."

"No I didn't," I said, shaking my head. "You're my best friend and I shouldn't have treated you like that."

"Kellin, it's fine. I was an asshole."

"So was I," I said with a shrug.

"We can agree on that much."

"We can," I said awkwardly.

"Why is this so awkward?" He asked.

I shrugged. "I don't know, we went through a lot of stuff, I guess."

"This sucks, can you just yell at me about how mad you are or something?"

"But I'm not?"

"You should be. I mean you were, Austin even said you were."

"I was," I admitted. "I was really, really fucking pissed off with you but, Victor kinda made me realize that even if you hadn't told me, I was going to attempt anyway. I was at a really low point and didn't know if I was ever going to come back from that."