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Chapter 6

The school day was pretty normal thankfully. After that one question in first period, I really wasn't in the best mood because I kept remembering things that happened between me and my ex. Ethan saw that I was a bit out of it and tried to cheer me up. It did work temporarily but my mind just didn't want to let it go today. My mom noticed my silence on the way home but didn't question it, giving me space which I was thankful for. When we pulled into the driveway, I jumped out of the car as soon as it was in park. I turned to my mom and she tossed me the keys. I ran up to the door and unlocked it before running inside, throwing the keys onto the counter. Once I was in the safety of my room, I felt like I could cry forever but I didn't. I just held it in because I promised myself I wouldn't let Aiden keep ruining my life. We were together for a year and a half before I realised everything that was happening and I ended it. This was only six months ago so obviously I'm not gonna be completely over it. Time makes you forgive, not forget. There was a small knock on my door bringing me out of my thoughts. I groaned then stood up and walked over to the door. I quickly checked if I was crying or not just in case. Thankfully I wasn't so I opened the door. I was shocked to see Ethan standing there. I moved aside for him to walk in and closed the door after he did so.
" Please tell me what's going on because your mom literally just came over to my house asking if I could talk to you " He breathed out.
" How did my mom even know you lived next door " I asked confused on why she did that and how she knew he lived there.
" I was taking out the trash and she saw me, almost gave me a heart attack as well by creeping up on me " He exaggerated.
" Yeah she can do that very well and it's pretty funny until she does it to you."
" So you gonna avoid what's been on your mind or want to talk about it " He asked.
" I want to avoid it for the rest of my life but I know I can't."
" How about I tell you how I became the fuckboy of my middle school and you tell me what's got you like this " He suggested. I thought about it for a minute then agreed. Was I actually about to trust him with this?
" Well this isn't really that long of a story since it all happened in 8th grade. I was dating this amazing girl named Caitlyn. We were what people call couple goals but if only they saw the real us. The truth was that we argued a lot, she was cheating on me, and I was slowly breaking because of her. Sometimes I would say sorry just to end the arguments that she caused. I was talking to her best friend once about what to do for our anniversary. Almost a year. She then came up to me and slapped me and walked away. I ran after her asking what that was about and she accused me of cheating on her then broke up with me. Her best friend had seen the whole thing and told me the truth. Caitlyn had just made that excuse so she could get rid of me. She had cheated on me with like five guys. I went home and cried for like three hours. Then I got angry cause the neighbors were playing really loud music. Now that I think about it, it was actually you. After I calmed down a bit, I fell asleep to the music since it sounded soft over thedd. Probably wasn't soft over here. The next day I was numb to any feelings. I couldn't feel anything so it just made what I did next so much easier. I knew one of Caitlyn's friend had a massive crush on me. I used that to my advantage. I flirted with her in front of Caitlyn, even made out with her then I realized I was using her and immediately felt guilty. There was a really popular girl that hated Caitlyn so to get back at her, she kissed me. There was pictures and videos on Snapchat of me and those two girls. Word spread that Caitlyn and I split up but not the real reason that caused it. She played the victim and I looked like the bad guy. Ended up dating her best friend who was no longer her best friend after the breakup happened. We dated for like three months and people thought it was weird how I got with Caitlyn's ex bff the same week we broke up. I was labeled as the player then it evolved to the fuckboy."
" She cheated on you then came out looking innocent while you got blamed. Why didn't karma decide to get involved during this? "
" Trust me, karma did get involved. She ended up getting with this one guy, don't remember his name, and he cheated on her with like two girls. He literally made out with these girls in the hallways and she ignored it until he broke up with her."
" Okay now time for my story and it might be long but no interrupting. Keep all comments till the end. My mom thought it would be fun for all of us to go to the park down the street. We were playing around until I accidentally bumped into someone during our game of tag. I had ran into some boy I had never seen before. I immediately apologized and he just smiled at me. At that time, that smile could make me melt but now it's just a painful reminder. My siblings kept playing while I talked to the boy. His name was Aiden and to me, he was perfect. I never saw his flaws which was stupid of me. We exchanged number and texted for a few weeks until he asked me out on a date. Of course I said yes so we went to the movies. It was nice then he walked me home and he kissed me. I was so happy that the smile didn't leave my face for like a week. We were so happy together or that's what I believed. We had been together for a year and a half. For our one year, he got me a beautiful necklace with his initials on it. Never took that thing off for the next six months. My mom decided to take us to the park one day. When we got there, Eli ran off to the swings so I went after him. I always push him on the swings since he can't seem to get it on his own. We were having fun but then I heard a girl laughing loud. I turned my head and what happened next broke my heart. I saw Aiden with this girl and they looked so happy. She was very beautiful so I don't blame him.  She was laughing at something he had said then looked at him. There stared at eachother for a few seconds then started leaning in. I was waiting for a miracle so he would pull away but then they kissed. I told Eli to go play with our sister then I walked over to them. They had been smiling at each other for a few seconds before he saw me. His smile immediately disappeared and she just looked confused as to who I was. I pulled off the necklace and handed it back to him then walked away before the tears could start to fall. My mom had seen the whole thing so she immediately took us home. I cried the entire day and she just let me knowing I needed to. It's been six months and I guess I'm not really over it. I loved him but I guess it was one sided. I ran into him a few months after at the park and he tried to explain to me what really happened but I didn't listen. I had seen what had happened so I didn't need any more heartbreak. I now avoid that park at all costs. When you kissed me in the classroom, it made me think of Aiden and I guess I got mad at myself for thinking of him. Then you kissed me again about five minutes later and I didn't think of Aiden, I just thought about you.
My first instinct would have been to push away and shut you out but something was telling me not to do it. I decided to listen and I'm kinda glad I did cause even though it's only been three days, we've became really good friends."
" Yeah cause it's normal for friends to kiss eachother on the cheek and the lips three times " He said sarcastically.
" Wait a minutes three times " I said but it was suppose to sound like a question. I turned to him only for him to kiss me. Is this just something he does, what in the world. I melted into the kiss and all thoughts of Aiden were gone in that moment. After a few seconds he pulled away.
" I wanted to do that the whole time you were talking, he has no idea of what he let go by cheating on you and if he thinks that girl was more beautiful than you, he needs his eyes checked."
I pulled him into a deep hug, not wanting to ever let go but I knew I had to at some point.
" I'm honestly confused on what we are but I'd rather enjoy these moments then talk about it " He whispered. I was very confused too on what we were but that's a conversation for another time.