Faith, Hope, And Love (Dean x *suicidal* Reader)

Chapter 19

Deans POV

I started up my baby and looked at Sam as Y/n got in. I gave him a concerned look and nodded towards y/n, but he just raised an eyebrow in confusion. I rolled my eyes and got out of the car, followed by him.

"What were you saying?" Sam questioned as we walked away from baby a bit.

"I was saying that y/n-...Shes gotta be lying about being okay, cause after i went to check on her she came out of the bathroom fucking crying Sam."

"What? Really? But she promised me-"

"It doesn't matter she 'Promised' you she was okay because shes obviously not. All im sayin is we need to keep an eye on her!" At this point i was practically screaming.

"Dean, i already know that but, why do you care so much?"

"Because Sam! I love her! She's annoying as hell sometimes but, damnit i love her!"i yelled at him, shouldn't he know this already?! Ive always had a crush on her, just sometimes i don't admit it to myself or show it. Ever since the day she fell from climbing a tree with me ive loved her.

~~~FlaShBAcK~~~(still from deans pov)

"Cmon y/n!" I yelled as i sat and looked down at her from a tree branch. She smiled at me and began climbing the tree. When she was close enough, i grabbed her hand and her other went on the branch. She slipped, and my grip was loosened and she fell, almost taking me with her. She screamed and i quickly climbed down.

"Y/n? Are you okay?" The panic in my voice was obvious. She was holding her ankle, i hope she didn't break it. She looks up at me and my heart drops, her face is covered in tears, she holds her arms up and mumbles

"Can you carry me..?" She's so cute,

"uh- yeah-" I picked her up and started walking towards the hotel. She was on my back and i was holding her thighs up as she held onto my broad shoulders. I heard her sniffle and out of habit from comforting sammy i started rubbing my thumb on her thigh soothingly. She nuzzled her head into my neck and i couldn't help but smile.

~~~EnD~~~

Your POV

You sat in the car drying your face with your sleeve when you heard dean yelling and looked up towards him.

" She's annoying as hell! Damnit.." you heard him scream, and, naturally, you knew he was talking about you. Your heart became heavy as you pulled your knees to your chest and sink your head into your hands and begin to cry. How could he say that? How could he be so cold! You remember you have razors, and you know exactly what you're ganna do when you get to the next hotel.