Faith, Hope, And Love (Dean x *suicidal* Reader)

Chapter 6

Hey guys! This one's short but I'm feeling energized so I'm going to try really hard to to write this more often!! ~signed, Nyxell<3

You don't fall asleep, but your on the edge of it. You struggle to keep awake, car rides have always made you tired. You assume dean thought you were asleep because he started talking to sam about you.

"Sam, do you think y/n is ok? I mean with all of the dreams she's had and stuff.."

"Yah, it's just a dream demon. I'm sure she'll be fine. They tend not to stay for long,unless.." sam paused.

"Unless what sam?!"

"Unless they can get her weak. But she's pretty badass so I'm positive she'll be fine."

You heard dean grunt as a response. You felt the car speed up and you could tell dean was upset about something.

"Dude, what's wrong?" Sam asked curiously.

"It's just, it gets on my nerves! Why couldn't the demon have chosen me to haunt?! She always needs supervision while she's asleep, and I'm tired and lately I've had to watch her more and more." You felt your heart sink deep into your chest. What is he saying? "I can't go hunting anymore. I have to watch her! Make sure she doesn't die in her sleep or wake up scared to death like this morning! I have to go on a hunt. As soon as I fucking can sam. I love her, but, god." He hit the steering wheel and you could tell he was upset. You just sat there pretended to be asleep. You pretend to wake up and you stretch. Dean looks at you through the rear view mirror.

"How ya holding up back there?" Sam asked caringly.

You pretend yawned, "I'm awake so, I guess that's good." You look back out the window and think about how you might be worthless. How you might be something holding back sam and dean. You didn't want that. You loved them both. Especially Dean. But you couldn't bare the thought of you being the reason hat they stopped hunting.