Faith, Hope, And Love (Dean x *suicidal* Reader)

Chapter 5😱

Hey guys! Sorry I'm slow on this, I'm not really the happiest person in the world with all this high school shit. Anyway, love you all! Don't forget to comment and vote!!! ~signed, Nyxell <3

~Dream~Realm~ You look up, realizing you're still in the same room as before. You try to move your arm, but realize it's tied to the ceiling by a chain. You look around and see your other arm tied to the ceiling as well as your legs to the ground. Although you could still touch the floor, there were still chains around your small ankles. You hear a laughter and whip your head around to see the same Zoey that stabbed you. If Zoey was even her real name....that is. You blink and standing in her place, was dean.

"Awe, hey sweatheart," he started, his eyes green and blinking wildly. He shook his head looking at the ground and laughed. You put a confused look on your face. "You, my dear, are WORTHLESS!!!" He screamed the last word. It stuck with you, your eyes widened.

"No! That's not true!!" You yelled back. He disappeared and reappeared shoving a knife into your lower thigh, you screamed and he pulled it out, watching the blood run down your leg and drip onto the floor.

"I am so..SICK, of having you around! So SICK and TIRED of you constantly needing things all the god DAMN TIME!!!" Your eyes started to water, he screamed at you, expressing his hatred with his hand and body motions. You close your eyes and you could feel 2 cold tears run down your face. Dean walked up to you with a very pissed off face.

"You." He said, stabbing you in the side, "Are." He stabbed you again. You scream and cry at the agonizing pain. "A WHORE." He screamed and sliced your leg with just the tip of the knife. You cry and cry and cry. He whispers into your ear.

"A slut.." he moves to the other ear, "A no good human being..who deserves death." He chuckled and walked away, leaving you there, bloody and crying. Is that really what dean thought of you? If Zoey knows him so well that she knows he hates you? You cry and scream his name, turning into your name. Scream by scream.

"Y/N!! WAKE THE FUCK UP!!!" You snap up and realize the dream you just had. You saw dean there in front of you. He reaches for you and you crawl back from him, out of his reach.

"Y/n what's wrong?? You were screaming and crying.." you look over to see sam on the other side of you, you reach out and hug him. You shove your face into his shoulder and cry. Sam kisses the top of your head and rubs your hair.

"Shhh....it's ok y/n...its all ok..."

After a while of sitting like that with sam, you look over at dean who's just staring at you worriedly. You feel more tears and you get off the bed.

"Y/n, tell us about the dream." Dean demands. You put your arms around yourself and just shake your head.

"Dean....dean you were hurting me..." you began to sniffle and cry a bit. "Telling me I was worthless. You...were calling me really bad name's and...." You don't even bother finishing the sentence, as you already know what's going trough his head. All of a sudden you feel big warm arms around you and you automatically know it's him. You flitch at first, being afraid of him still, but you relaxed into the hug and started crying a bit.

"Y/n. My sweet sweet y/n." He lifted your chin up and made direct eye contact with you, giving you butterflies. "You. Are anything but worthless. You are one of my favorite human beings on this planet and you know that." He planted a kiss on your forehead and you hugged him tightly. You sniffle and pull away from the hug.

"Can we go to the store? I really want some chocolate.." you laughed while rubbing your eyes. Dean looks at sam and you look at him too.

"Uh, I mean, I don't see why not." He chuckled.

#%Flash Forward to being at the store%#

You walk into the doors, followed by sam and dean. You look down the isles, looking for the candy. Dean went off to get some beer, and sam went to get coffee. You come across the shower and shaving isle. You walk past some shampoo, and grab one small container of it and conditioner for the road. You walk further down the isle and see blades. For shaving. You think for a few seconds. Deciding if dean does actually hate you. What if he actually hates being around you. What if you are worthless? You pick up the small package of 6 and take them to check out. Forgetting the chocolate. You check out and look for sam and dean. You walk outside and see them in the impala arguing about something. You walk to the door and open it, hoping into the back seat. You just sit there looking at your hands. Dean starts the car and continues to ramble on about wanting pie. After a few minutes, you're back at the motel.

"Y/n, get your shit and meet us back at the car." Dean hisses. You make a sad face and get out with your small bag of shampoo and blades. You get into the motel and you go into the bathroom to get some of your stuff. You look down at your wrists, and go to grab the package of blades. You slide one out carefully, it's so shiny. It's smooth and sharp. You roll up your sleeve a bit more and place the blade on your cut free skin. You hear the motel door open, and you panic to put the blades away.

"Y/n, you almost ready?" You heard sam yell from the other room.

"Yah..uh, gimme a minute!" You quickly flush the toilet to give the image of you had just used the bathroom. You put the blades into your bag, and head out.

"Ready!" You smile at sam and you hear dean honk the horn twice. You rolled your eyes and yelled "WE'RE COMING!!!" And you two rushed out the door. You hop into the back again and sit your bag down next to you.

"Where are we going?" You asked dean as he drove away from the motel.

"New hunt." Is all he said. He seemed a bit ticked off, but you shrugged it off. You lay your head on your hand and close your eyes. Listening to dean's terrible taste In music. You always thought it was bad. Like, who has only 8 tapes? Who has tapes anymore?