Faith, Hope, And Love (Dean x *suicidal* Reader)

Chapter 21

Deans Pov

I woke up suddenly. I looked around and saw Y/n was gone.

"Shhit.." I mumbled as i quickly got up and ran over to Sam. "Sam! Sammy wake up!" I shook him awake and he groaned and got up. But i was already half way down the hallway, i heard his stomps as he followed me.

"What the hell dean?" He asked, his words slurring. I didnt bother to answer, i had just noticed the bathroom door was closed. I wiggled the knob and tried to open the door, but it was locked. I started to panic.

"Y/n?! Y/n are you okay?! Y/n?!!" I yelled as i began banging on the door. There was nothing but silence. I stood back and Kicked the door down. I pushed the door aside and ran in the room. I saw Y/n in the tub..and the water was red. I ran over to her.

"Y/n? Jesus-Y/n??!!" I held her head as tears filled my eyes. As i looked down at the water i saw her wrists. I grabbed one and saw the blood still dripping down her wrists. She had slit her wrists..In attempt to kill herself! What? Why! I dont understand!!

At this point i was crying like an old man that had just found out his wife died.  I picked her up, not even thinking twice about if she was clothed or not. I took her out to the impala and laid her int the back seat, sitting with her and putting pressure on her wrists with my shirt. Sam hopped into the front seat and began driving, not bothering to put his seat-belt on.

"Cmon Y/n..Dont you dare die on me..!" I whispered as i stroked her hair. I loved her so much..I dont understand why she would have done this-More why she didnt talk to us about it. As i lifted the shirt to check if the bleeding had stopped, i noticed other little cuts all up and down her arms. I felt more tears running down my cheeks as i covered them back up. I looked up and saw Sam pulling into the E.R.. He had barely stopped the car when i jumped out, grabbed y/n and ran her inside. Immediately doctors and nurses came over to me and took her away. I tried following her but a doctor with a nametag that said 'Dr.Wright' on it stopped me,

"Sir i think its best-"

"No thats my girlfriend i need to be with her!" I screamed out, trying to sound tough.

"Sir i understand but its best if you wait out here. Please take a seat, doctors will be with you in a second." He stated calmly. I rolled my eyes and sat in one of the uncomfortable hospital chairs. I wiped away a tear and i saw Sammy rushing in. He was looking around like a panicked moose.

"Over here Sam." I waved him over sorrowfully. He saw me and sat across from me.

"What-"

"The doctor said we have to wait.." I mumbled. I rubbed my eyes and groaned, "God damnit. What the hell was she thinking sam? Why-How did we not notice this.." My voice cracked and i began crying again. Sam sighed,

"I..I dunno Dean. I dunno.." He mumbled, tearing up.