wedding buddies ↠ harry styles ✓

EIGHTY

Carrington Hill

The same company who we worked with for our engagement party was helping us with our wedding, too. Harry and I had different ideas for the wedding, especially in terms of its size.

Harry wanted a massive wedding and I wanted a more closed off one. His reasoning was simply how "we could afford it, so why not" whilst I just told him "the marriage is about us so let's have a fairly small wedding and spend a shit ton on our honeymoon." I thought my argument was stronger and more logical but, in the end, I had to give into him.

We literally got to the point where every time I looked at him, I was reminded of that one damn thing and it put me in a mood where no one could talk to me without me complaining or going off on someone for no reason at all. Harry tested my patience until he knew he could and made me give into him and his stupid ideas.

Well, they weren't stupid.

But it did make us fight therefore I thought it was silly.

I swear it caused us to sleep in different rooms for a whole week and we barely even spoke which was very unlike us. Whenever we fought, although it was a rare occasion, we didn't ignore each other for longer than a few hours. I, for one, felt like shit going to bed without sorting things out with him, but we had done it for seven days in a row. To be fair, the fact that we were both extremely busy made is easier for us to ignore each other.

However, we were over it.

We decided on a big wedding and a big honeymoon even though the first one did send my anxiety through the roofs. Yes, it was going to be family and friends there but there was so much that could go wrong and that stressed me out greatly.

Not to mention the competition that Alex and I have had yet to attend in Birmingham. It was only a day long, we go in the morning then come home in the evening type of thing but it was still something we had to train for. Just because it wasn't a championship or anything big it was still important that we were prepared and ready to do our best.

Oh, and I'm not going to lie, it did tick Harry off a little bit that I had that competition to attend in the middle of our wedding planning. We fought over it, then he gave me the silent treatment. I didn't think I did anything wrong, I was simply doing my job just like the way he scheduled a fitting or a show where he wanted to walk. I kind of felt like he wanted to get this whole wedding over and done with and I couldn't say the same for myself.

Personally, I was more than happy staying engaged for a year or two, I didn't see why we had to hurry and get married. We were fine before we got engaged and just because I wore a ring he slipped on my finger, didn't really mean that we had to get married right away. I wanted to enjoy this whole thing. I wanted to feel excited and impatient to go dress shopping, go cake tasting, talk about the colour theme, what food we'd be having and stuff like that whereas Harry gave off a vibe where he wasn't really that arsed about these things.

Yet he wanted a massive wedding.

I didn't know how, though, because I wasn't going to just hurry all of this and have a shitty wedding. This was a once in a lifetime thing, seeing as I didn't plan on getting divorced, and I wanted it to be memorable.

Although, if one good thing came out of our constant fighting was the relationship I have built with Harry's mother and sister. Anne and Lily were on my side about this whole thing, they didn't understand why Harry wanted the wedding to be over so quick when according to this mum, he had talked so much about having his own and everything.

It seemed impossible to even ask Harry about his thoughts because he shut the whole topic down. And I didn't even get to bring it up.

Up until today.