Regrets

Chapter Four

Charlotte's P.O.V

*Flashback*

I was living up in Heaven with Cas and the other angels. They all seem to just leave me alone and not talk to me whatsoever. I am honestly feeling like I just don't belong to Heaven. Everyone else has friends up here and it feels like I'm the only one that doesn't. I decided to wander around and see what is around when I bumped into this man wearing a suit and a trench coat. He had black hair and blue eyes. I had to admit he is attractive. He looks at me for a few moments and then smiles.

"Sorry I bumped into you. I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking. My name is Castiel. What's yours?" He seemed really nice and I was really interested in him.

"My name is Charlotte and I wasn't paying attention either. I was just wondering round to see what else is around. No one has talked to me so I haven't left where I was because I didn't want to get lost but I guess curiosity got the best of me." He laughed at me rambling. He looked at me for another moment before he decided to actually talk back. "I could show you around if you would like. I have been up here for a while so I know my way around here well. I am sorry that no one will talk to you but it's probably better that you don't want them to talk to you seeing as how they aren't really the best of company." After that, he decided to be my tour guide for the day.

For the next few months, you guys spent every day together talking and making jokes. You guys were the best of friends, attached at the hip. They were hanging around just talking when Cas decided that he couldn't wait anymore.

"Charlotte I have known you for the past five months and it has been so amazing having a friend like you. You are sweet, Caring, kind, and will listen to everything I have to say no matter how long or how lame the idea is. I want to be more than friends with you. You are so perfect to me so please, Will you be my girlfriend?" I couldn't believe that he is finally asking me out. I have come to really like him these past five months I just could never find the courage to ask where things are heading for the two of us. I am glad that he was the one to ask. I would love to be his girlfriend. I see myself just wrapped up in his arms while we watch the humans. I realized that I was stuck in my head and I technically didn't say it out loud and that the smile on Cas' face was no longer there.

"I would understand if you didn't want to be my girlfriend I just thought that things have been amazing the past couple of months but apparently I was wrong so I think I'll just go now and talk to you tomorrow." Cas got up and was about to walk away when I grabbed his hand and pulled his arm so that he got that I wanted him to sit back down. When he was seated and looking at me I decided that I should just get everything off my chest. "Cas, I wasn't ignoring what you said. I heard every word you said and I got stuck in my head for a minute thinking about how lucky I am that I found a guy like you. It would make me so happy to be your girlfriend." He leaned over and kissed me. It was a very sweet kiss full of love.

When we broke apart I stared at him and said, "I am glad I bumped into you that day. It was the best decision of my life." He laughed again. "I'm glad you decided to wander around so I could bump into you." From there we were considered the cutest couple that Heaven had seen in a long time. We somehow spent even more time together than we did before. We were happy and in love but like all good things it must eventually come to an end.

Nine months after we got together we were still going strong. We were always with each other telling each other how much we loved each other until a couple weeks ago Castiel was sent down to hell to retrieve Dean Winchester and I haven't seen him since. I miss Cas so much. I never really notice how alone I truly was until Cas left. Did I do something wrong? Why hasn't he come back to me? I decided that I would wait another week and if he didn't show up than I was going to go see him.

Turns out I had to make a trip to the real world. I appeared in a motel room where Cas was sitting on a bed waiting. He saw me and his eyes were filled with sadness and guilt. I looked at him with sadness in my eyes as well. "Well, at least I know you are alive and ok. I miss you Cas. Why have you not returned to Heaven? Why haven't you returned to me?" I was about to cry in front of him. Did he not love me anymore? Is this why he had decided not to return to Heaven? Cas looks at me for a few more moments and then decides that he is ready to speak.

"Charlotte, I have been helping the boys with hunting. I just need time to think about things. Why did you come down here anyway?" I can't believe he is asking me why I would come down here to see him. "Cas, I missed you so much I didn't know if you were even still alive. I just hadn't heard from you in two weeks I started to get worried. Why didn't you stop by even just for a little while?" I knew something was up with him because his face was full of guilt and sadness before but now his face is hard and unnerving. "Charlotte, I am done with you. The last nine months were great and all but I just can't do this anymore. I don't love you like I used to. I was hoping you would have just given up on me but I was wrong. Now if you don't mind I was in the middle of waiting for the boys to show up so that I can talk to them."

The tears I was trying to hold back just let go a little and as I faced Cas I knew that this was the end. I couldn't fight for something that wasn't there anymore. I guess I just thought that he was the one but I was too naïve to realize that everything was just a game for him. "Ok. I will leave you alone. I thought that you still loved me but you showed me that isn't the case anymore. Have a nice life Cas. You deserve to have a happy life." I mustered up all I could to just get those words out. I looked at him for one more minute and then disappeared back to Heaven to try and live my life without thinking of Cas.

A couple weeks after that event occurred was told to protect Aurora Smith and her group of hunters. Ever since then I have tried to be happy and try not to think of the man that broke my heart completely.

*End of Flashback*

*This story is a little longer than I planned it to be. I hope you guys like the story. If there are any spelling errors please feel free to comment about them. I tried to fix them but I'm only human and humans can make mistakes*