Regrets

Chapter Ten

Charlotte's P.O.V

After Dean told Cas to sit next to me I went rigid. I couldn't just sit there and pretend that nothing happened. Then I heard Aurora ask to speak with Dean. I looked over as they were walking out of the room, probably going to the other one to talk. We continued watching the drama induced tv show when Sam decided to speak up. "Charlotte are you ok? You look a little stiff over there?" Noah turns around and gives Sam a death glare while Sophie lightly slaps him and whispers in his ear. His eyes go from concerned to understanding. He looks over to me and nods his head letting me know that he won't bring it up again.

When Dean and Aurora returned back to the room I noticed that their lips were a little swollen. Really! She really went for it. I'm happy for her. I noticed that they seemed to like each other but Dean's reputation isn't the best when it comes to treating girls the way they should be treated but maybe he is willing to break habit.

I got up and said my goodnights to everyone before heading out of the room to go to the one i shared with Noah. I stopped at the door and leaned against it. Why was this happening? Why can't I just stop having feelings for him? I just don't want to deal with the pain of seeing him. I stood up to compose myself before walking into my room.

Once I turned the lights on, I saw Cas sitting on the bed that held my bag of clothes on it. What is he doing in here? I would expect him to be watching that crappy show with everyone else. He stood up when I closed the door and started walking toward me. No this cannot be happening right now. He saw that I had sorrow in my eyes and stopped walking. I looked into his eyes to see that he was doing the same and I noticed that his eyes are filled with sadness and guilt. What is he so guilty about?

"Charlotte. Please listen to what I have to say before you leave. I just wanted to say that I am sorry I hurt you way back when. I thought I was doing the right thing but apparently I wasn't because every time I think I see you on the street or hear your name or even think I hear your voice I get really sad and wonder what our life would be right now if I wasn't such an ass and ended things. And It wasn't like I ended things nicely either I was extremely shitty by telling you that I didn't love you anymore because that was clearly a lie. I don't remember why I even acted that way towards you. I was dumb and stupid but I do still love you and I want you, us to get back together but I understand if you're gonna need time to work things out so I'm gonna go back to the rest of the group." He looked at me one more time and then vanished. I stood there for another moment while everything he said processed and once it did I had tears in my eyes. He still loves me? I can't believe that he still loves me and really wants me back. Then it was like the devil showed up on my shoulder to give me the bad news. What if i get back together with him and he breaks it off again? Can I deal with another heartbreak? What if he's just using me until he gets bored? Did he really mean anything he just said? I couldn't stop thinking about it so I decided a nice shower will do the trick. I grabbed my sleepwear and toiletry stuff before heading into the bathroom to take a much needed shower. After I showered, brushed my hair and teeth I walked over to the bed and decided to hit the hay early. It only took me a few moments before I drifted off into a dreamful sleep.

Cas and I were back in the nice garden that had a lot of bushes, trees, and statues when I got the idea that I would play a little game of hide and seek. It was a nice day and Cas was wearing some jeans, sneakers, and a t-shirt, He doesn't usually wear casual clothes but when he's around me he wants to be comfortable so that we can just relax.

"Charlotte! Where are you? Come on baby I know you are hiding here somewhere." I was hiding behind a big statue and just watching the smile on his face as he is calling my name and searching for me was enough to get me to smile back. Then he tripped over a small rock and fell almost face first. Of course I started laughing. Cas' head shot up towards the sound and I covered the laugh that was still threatening to come out when he ran towards me and grabbed me but the waist and pulling me towards the ground. We landed with me on top of him and us both laughing hysterically. He looked into my eyes and I swear I saw the love shining in his eyes as he leaned up and kissed me. When we ended the kiss he started to disappear. His voice started to drift into my ears. "I don't love you anymore." the words kept repeating over and over again.

"Cas! Cas please come back to me! Please! I love you Cas!"

I jolted awake panting. It took me a few minutes to realize it was just a memory gone wrong. I wish i could stop dreaming about my past. I looked over at the time to see that it was 5:30 in the morning. Noah was still sleeping in the bed next to mine. I decided that a glass of water would be good and then to try and catch a couple more hours of sleep. I finished the drink and laid back in bed.

The next morning we decided that the same group was going to go to the school. We ate breakfast with some small talk and then the team got ready to leave. I walked over to Aurora. "Please be careful. We technically don't know for certain what's going on so don't let your guard down." She smiled at me and then gave me a hug. "I'll be careful. I promise." I looked over at Noah with a hard look. "Noah. I better hear that you were blending in not causing trouble. Ok?" He nodded over at me and they all walked off.

I decided to read a book on Roman legends while Sophie was researching things on her laptop. It was all quiet except for the sound of the laptop keys being hit and the turning of pages until I heard the fluttering of wings. Really? I was enjoying the book. I ignore that he's here and continue reading until he picked up my feet and sat down on the couch next to me. I finished the paragraph and closed the book. He was already looking at me. "What are you doing here Castiel?" I didn't mean it to sound as harsh as it did but it's fine. He looked at me for another moment and just shrugged. He leaned back and closed his eyes. What is he doing? I shook my head and continued to read while trying to ignore him. He didn't seem to mind I think he just wanted to be closer to people he is familiar with.

It took another couple of hours before they returned. I was still reading the same book with my feet on Cas' lap and Sophie was sleeping on one of the beds when they returned. They explained that it was a vengeful spirit in the school bus. They took care of it so now it was time to celebrate all the lives they saved.