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Chapter Thirteen: Disappointed//Failure

⚠️WARNING: EATING DISORDERS AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS⚠️

Zach's P.O.V

I watched as Trish pulled away from the hug and looked at me with a hit of sadness in her eye.

"Well, I did eat at Noah's house. Then I threw it up.. On purpose." I said, looking down at my feet.

"Zach, what the fuck-- sorry, frick?" She said, stepping closer as I stepped away.

"I.. don't know. Eating just makes me feel gross." I said, not really knowing how to put it.

"Zach, why haven't you told me this before?" She asked, her eyes glistening with tears.

"I've been having these weird dreams, almost like nightmares, but they always end on a good note." I said, thinking about my dreams.

"What kind of dreams?" She asked, sitting back on the bed.

"Basically, they're about Justin. And you." I said, taking a seat on my desk chair. "You always live and so does Justin, but, I don't know they always give me really bad feelings." I continued.

"So, what makes them so bad?" She asked, not understanding.

"The kidnappers. They always have this demented smile and the look in their eyes is just scary. They have the intent to kill." I said, shaking the thoughts out of my head.

"Zach, why haven't you told me?" She asked again.

"I just -- I don't know. But, in the dreams, the kidnappers always degrade me, calling me names like, 'worthless', 'disgrace', and 'fat', and just other names like that." I said, looking away from her. "I have these dreams so frequently, that -- well, I started to believe what they were saying." I looked back at her, seeing a single tear run down her face and fall onto her leg.

"Zach, I -- I never thought about therapy. I'm sorr --" She stopped, looking down at the scars on my arms. I didn't realize how noticeable they were until she looked at them. I quickly put my arms behind my back, trying to erase what she just saw. She stood up, pulled my arm from behind my back and looked at the scars. Some old, some new. I jerked my hand back, ashamed. I closed my eyes, waiting for whatever she had to say. She didn't say anything. I opened my eyes, expecting to see her upset face. I didn't see anything. She left. I felt this weird pain inside of my stomach. I had disappointed my sister.

Trish's P.O.V

I thought about what I had seen on my brother's arm. Was it my fault? Did I somehow cause this? We still have no idea why we were kidnapped. I probably should've tried harder to find out. I don't know. I decided to go back downstairs and ask the Meyers' to leave. They didn't need to know all the details. I called Noah's mother, asking her for Noah's number.

"Why do you need my son's phone number?" She asked, weirded out.

"My brother has been going through some things and if he comes over again, I just want Noah to look out for him, y'know? I feel like they really hit it off." I said, thinking about the text I saw on Zach's phone.

"Oh, my best wishes to you and Zach. Noah's number is (701)-646-6464. I have to go make dinner, but again, best wishes for you and Zach. He can come over anytime." She said, sympathetically. I told her goodbye and went to go sit on the couch. I added Noah's number into my contacts and texted him.

hey noah, its zachs sister and this is probably really weird but i got your number from your mom and i just wanna say nest time zach comes over will you just look out for him? hes been going through some shit rn thanks in advance.

I got a text back in less than 3 minutes.

yes ma'am ill look out for zach, uh dont tell him but i kinda like him.. i  just dont want anything bad to happen to him so if there is anything i can do, dont be afraid to let me know. i like to bake and he told me that he really likes chocolate chip anyways let zach know im here for him sorry if this was a lot to read. bye have a nice day.

It really amazed me at how much Noah actually cared about Zach. It was comforting, nice to know that there were other people who cared. I really felt like a failure, though. Zach is my responsibility, and I failed him.

A/N: #zachprotectionsquad we love zach alot and if you dont you can just leave ok ty for reading you all are beautiful and i love you alot ok bye