Honest Diaries

Chapter 19

Dear diary,

I can't believe it's been a year since my last entry...

A lot has happened since then, are you still willing to keep up with me?

I haven't spoken to Andrew in that year.

We've exchanged a few polite messages, birthday wishes, promises to meet for coffee that were never actually executed.

I don't care anymore. I don't think back. I don't worry. I don't think of 'what ifs'.

He lives his life. I live mine.

And happily.

Wanna know what happened in my post-Andrew life?

I've changed universities, changed majors.

I met new people, made new friends, I fitted in.

Personally? I've grown. I learned not to care about things and people that don't deserve it.

I learned to enjoy life. To appreciate the little things. To not stress about every little detail.

I learned to speak my mind. To appreciate not only life and others but myself as well. To work on my well-being. To support a little healthy self-appreciacion, self-confidence.

I realized that when you are happy with yourself, others enjoy you too.

I worked on myself. Hard.

And what has that hard work brought with it?

A new beginning.

Success in professional life.

Success in life.

Success in love.

Yes, I'm happily in love for a year.

With someone who appreciates the new me. Who accepts the past me. Who supports me. Who motivates me to be my better self not through changes and comments such as 'don't be like that, don't do that', but through his actions themselves. Being my support, my friend, my most valued advisor.

Michael.

We value each other. We respect each other. We enjoy life together. All the ups and downs that come with it. 

Because that's it, that's life. Not the picture-perfect, dreamed-of life. But the real one. The one where you are sometimes tired. You don't know how to proceed. You just want to curl up and let the problems pass by. That's when you act as a team, providing energy and support to help each other through.

That's what forms you.

That's what makes you better.

That's what makes you YOU.

So please, please, don't ever give up. Don't ever forget this.

Just be you. Remember that the 'you' that you're right now is the best you can be in this very moment. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Love yourself a little, or a lot. Whatever suits you.

Because once you'll accept yourself and be happy with yourself the others will feel it. Positively.

I have never been much of a journal keeper but this has been a refreshing ride. 

This is my story, this is the end of it.

Now go, and write yours.

Because you're your own best writer.

Hope I'll see you in my future adventures and new stories.

Until next time,

Natalie