crushed dreams

sorry

you told me something
i'd never wanted to hear.
telling me your leaving
for someone else.

i stared at you thinking
if i'm good enough. thinking
if i should cry or beg you to
stay.

so i screamed and told you
to leave and never ever
come back to me.
you looked surprised at
what i said. so you left.
slamming the door
in my face.

i regret saying that after you
slammed the door. the rest of
the night i cried. then
remembering all the times
we shared. crying harder than
before.

for the past month i
called and texted you.
you left me on read and
never responded. i'm not
surprised. to you, you
probably think i'm annoying.

i keep texting you till this day.
saying the same thing ever
day. but can't tell you how
i actually feel.

'i'm sorry okay.
i didn't mean what
i said. you hurt me
and i freaked out. you
hear me? i'm sorry.'

-read 12:35 am